My tummy is not feeling good at all at the moment. I'm not sure what exactly set if off, but it's to the point where I think I may barf....and as I've discussed before, I have a seroius fear of vomitting, but at least I'm at home, and if it should happen, then it's beeter to happen here.....I ddin't eat anything out of the ordibnary today....so I blame it on the iron suppliments I've been taking, one of its possible side effects are nausea, vomitting, cramps and a bunch of other unpleasant things......uhg...

Last night there were some crazy storms here. I don't usually mind storms but last night it was just lightening and no thunder. Too much lighteniung at very clse intervals, that made me a litle nervous... See, the enormous weeping willow across the street from me has been hit by lightening like 5 times, not since I've lived here, but I'm always a little nervous that a bolt will hit it and out house will be crushed.....

So I was watching the lightening out my window...and was getting all freaked out...and suddenly I found myself feeling very affraid. Too affraid to even tun around because I knew my closet was open and the room was poitch black. All I could imagine was zombies and monsters creeping up behind me, waiting for me to turn around... So I jumped into my bed, pulled the cover up to my nose and watched the storm from my bed (you have no ida how much I HATE even writting the word storm....for reasons only a few will understand) and then I got to thinking about that bit in Poltergeist when the clown is under the kids bed and goes bonkers, then the tre eats him...So now I'm even more freaked out and it was gettin glate (23h00) and I had the be up by 4h45....not good. When I finaly did get to sleep, I had nightmares, no doubt induced by the fear of the weather.

I was dreamng that I was running from something that was chasing me. I was running throught the woods I grew up in. It was pouring rain, with thunder and lightening. It seemed so real, You know when you have a scarry dream you can actually feel the fear? Like you chest tenses up, you find it harder to breath, you feel panicked.. I was feeling all those things. I was runing, and I could feel the damp, stomy tense air. I could feel the big wet maple leaves slapping me in the face as I ran throught the woods.. I could hear and feel the slushy mud under my snaekers, but I couldn't hear anything behind me, but I knew something or someone was running after me....I was running and running and the woods never ended. I finally woke up at one point, blankets in a heap on the floor, shivering cold and was sure I still ahd a few hours to go before I had to get up. I rubbed my eyes and the clock read: 3h58...only less than and hour left of sleep. Let me teel you, it's a goods thing we were really busy at work, otherwise I would have been a complete zombie.

It's so muggy and sticky out right now, everything feels damp.

My tummy still hurts and all I want to do it lie down and fall asleep so it'll be tomorrow and I (hopefully) wont have a tummy ache anymore.

And so it shall be.

TOPIC TUESDAY TOPIC:
THE GOLDEN CHICKEN
1910 Ch D'oka, Deux-Montagnes
(450)-473-4661

Ahhh yes, the Golden Chicken. Probably then ONLY restaurant worth going to in Two-Mountains...Let me tell you a little about it. It's a small restaurant at the corner of the town's main strip. The interior is wood panneling with a turquiose green trim and there are decorative rosters scattered around. Outside, the yellow sign has an big chicken with big muscle lifting a pizza pie into the air....I think you get the picture.

The Golden Chicken is best know for (bet you thought I wasgoing to say chicken right?) it's ever savoury souvlakis as well as its extra greasy/cheesy pizzas. They also serve the best (in my opinion) poutine in town and sugar pie too!

Lets beging with the favourite: souvlaki pitas. Every now and then I get this increadible craving for a Golden Ckicken Souvlaki pita, and now I'm going to tell you why this is so... They have the most fluffy pitas I've ever eaten. The are thick and dough-y and come wrapped in foil to keep them at the optimum temperature. When you bite into these pitas, they leave behind yummy crumbs all over your lips...one if it's best features in my opinion. Now the key to this and ANY souvlaki is the tzatziki sauce. The Pino Boys have mastered the recipe becasue it's sooo creamy/oniony/smelly/sweet that you're gonna want to take somew extra to go. The rest is up to you, but the standart pita come with or withou meat and onions, tomato and the smallest amount of shredded lettuce.
10/10

Next is their pizza. I have only had it on a few occasions, but can remember the taste like it was yesterday. It's uber greassy and always has cheese to spare, infact the cheese is sometimes so abundant that it can be almost too much, if that's possible. The crust is puffy and crisp and not too thin....jhust right. This pizza is so good, I'll even eat it cold.
8/10

POO-tine....how can one go wrong when you mix fries, gravy and cheese curds? The best part..it's vegitarian so everyone can enjoy it's fatty goodness. Next to McDonalds, the Golden had my favorite fries. The are the medeuim thick Mc Cain fries and they always cook them to a golden crisp perfection....The sause is BBQ-e but not too spicy, thick without being lumpy and sooo HOT! (hot in temperature I mean) And I think the temperature in the tsauce is what makes this putine so good. Becasue the sauce is so hot, the curds melt and then you've got a cheese goo feast..The only problem I have with it is that i only like it until the fries get soggy, then I can't eat it any more. My fries need to be crispy, but all I usually do is ask for less sauce or have it on the side to add as needed....
10/10

Sugar pie......need I say more?
10/10

As for the rest of the menu, I haven;t tried much else, but they've got jst about everything. The even have a chinese food menu (egg rolls, fried rice, wont-tong soup....) I have yet to try anything chines from there. only because i only eat chinese from a chinese food place...your choice though... The also have good subs, I've never had one but my brotyhers a BIG fans of them and I have to admit, they do look real good....They got the pasta, lasangnas, subs, hot sandwiches, clubs sandwiches, fish, burgers....they got the works and at a very affordable price. You could easily eat a big meal with soup and desert and coffee for under $10.....Trust me you'll be stuffed, the portions are quite generous.

So next time you are in Two-Mountains or withing the Golden Chicken's delivery range....try them out...I can guarantee you'll be back for more.


*J your jounal isn't working.....

Must play Sim City...Sims need more industrial zones......taxes too high.......no water....low income......

All I can think about all day is freaking Sim City, It's even begun to interfere with my nascar driving. But it's all I can think about. When I'm walking downtown I just imagine where I'd put a park, or plant trees. And I wonder where all the pipes are....I even think about it as I fall aspleep at night... Did I give them enough schools? Are the power plants strong enought? Do they need more parks? Are my Sims happy?????

Oh and the other thing on my mind is what ion earth could Steph have for me?

I would have posted much earlier tonight but #1, I was Sim-img and #2, the connection to my modem was down which means me going down into the "lab" in the basement and re-connecting it, which takes a little time, precious time. I also had some work to do for work so I really didn't manage my time very well....Especially since it's now time for bed.

I gotta do something about my pillow situation. About a month or so ago, I bought two very mushy pillows from Ikea. They seemed to be a good idea at the time. They were the ones you rest your head and and they puof up on either side of your haed...comfy: yes, supportive: no

So I wake up during the night and have the worst kinks in my neck. I'm always shuffling them around, just using one, fluffing them up, but even with all that effort, they just ain't comfy. Which is really too bad because, like everything at Ikea, they weren't cheap!!

Just realized that it was supposed to be topic tuesday today, I'm all outta wack because I was off yesterday and I thought today was monday, I'll be posting the topic tuesday blog tomorrow.. thte subject was submitted by Chris and it was : The Golden Chicken: What's you favorite meal?

I just finished off the most delicioud diner... French toast with melting Nutella all over.... Nothing can beat that. It's a good thing I did my hour workout tape today, at least I'll break even for the day. Seriously, I dunno what I'd do without my hazelnut friend..so yummy...so semi-nutritious.....

Since I had th day off today, I did pretty close to nothing. The most I did was work out, which I wasn;t really going to do but decided that I'd feel worse if I didn't.

Steph just wrote me an e-amil saying she has something for me...better not be some sort of joke, like a picture of the Rock....whom by the way I'm soooo over. If it's an autographed picture of Ed Norton, then that's a different story. However I won;t be getting this mystery gift until she gets the cd and stuff I had borrord form her like ages ago for Aniter's birthday. I did actually give them back, almost, Aniter has them, so I guess as soon as Steph goes to get it or Aniter brings it over I'll get my gift, hjope it starts with an "N" and ends with "UTELLA".....

So I played Sim city for a few hours, did a little racing on the ps2, ok a lot of racing and ate that deliciour diner and now I need to do the things I shopuld have been doing today like laundry and cleaning and getting ready to go back to work tomorrow. I feel like I've been on a mini holiday this week-end, and the mini holiday feeling also brings with it the I don't ever want to go back to work feeling.....But a gilr's gotta do what a girls gotta do.. Can't pay for paint for my room withou a job right?

I know I'm cutting it short, but I do have things that need to get done before bedtime, and my Sims need me!!

Just had a super awesome week-end.. andf to think I still have one more day off!

Now my birthday is OFFICIALLY over, I'm saying that becasue I got my last gift last night. It was that my two closest friends came down to good ol' Two-Mountains to spend the night. Anita and Marnie braved the train ride up here and we had a great time.. well at least I know I did!!! It was strange at first to have them here. I always see them in town and stuff and no one really comes over to my place so it was like they were outta place or something...strange.

After I gave them the tour of the house we headed up to the store for munchies and beer....the essentials. We came back and drank. Yes I drank.. more than I thought I was. I was thinkin gI was only going top be drinking 1-2 Bomerangs but as it turned out I think I had 3 and a glass....felt good, real good.

Anways we talked all night. My mum even stayed with us ands we all just sat around the kitchen table and chatted. It was fun becasue even though it was my mum, we were all chatting like she was part of the gang. I'm not saying this in a bad way..infact I'm saying it in a very good way....It just goes to prove even more so thaty me and my mum are great friuends. She really loves Marnie and Anita. She thinks they are really funny, smart, interesting people and had lots of fun talking with them. And I think Anita and Marnie enjoyed all my mum's stories about living downtown and meeting all sorts of interesting people.... At least the faked it really good.

We snacked constantly from about seven until midnight, if not later. We ate veggies and dips, pop-corn, 3-D doritors, sunchips, pickle chips, ring-o-lo's, you name it, we ate it! We were suposed to have chocolate fondu but by the time we though of it, we were all too into our drinking to start eating desserts...a wise decision I think. We watch cable TV and a movie and really just chatted and talked girl stuff.

This morning I woke to find Marnie watching TV and eating the reast of her ring-o-lo's...Keep in mind it was about nine-thirty... Anyways, my mum was sweet enought to make us a delicious breakfast of eggs benedict, lots of coffee and lots of toast, soooo yummy! We then ventured out to go for a little toour of Two-Mountains. we went down to the "beach" and looked around at all the houses and ended up goin to a garage sale where we saw 5 amazing white 70's swivel chairs that could easily sell downtown for $500.00, but this lady was selling htem all for $20.00! But someone had just bought them about five minuted before we got there....But Marnie found a few things and so did Aniter... So then it was lunchtime and where better to eat then at Two-Mountains finest dinner? That's right "The Poulet Dore". Aniter had the much talked about Souvlaki pita with fries, Marnie satisfied her craving for fish with the finsh n' chip platter and I had a good ol' poutine...All very delicious.....

After lunch we were feeling very sunday-ish (meaning tired and lazy) and it was getting late so we went on a short garage sale hun by car with mum where Aniter found another treasure: an awesome stell desk for ten dollars. We then headed off to Cote-Vetu metro which is only a short drive away and Anita and Marnie went home, Anita carrying her new desk in her (now sore) arms.....

I had such a nice time and I am really happy the both came down. I realize it's not easy to get down here, but it made me so happy that they did. I really am lucky to have friends like them...And they even said they'd come back again soon....

But now it's tioe to take a nice long hot shower (after I remove the plunger from it.....Anita) and cuddle into my jammies and play Sim City for 12 hours and I know I;m gonna sleep well tonight, no work tomorrow!!!

Last night I went to my brother's show at Saphire... I know I'm his sister and all, but they were really great! I'm so proud of my brother, I get this stupid grin whenever I go see him play. His new band is called "Les Pugilists". They formed like about a year or so ago and this was their first show. Lucas hadden't played a show in forever but he seemed to get right back into it as soon as they started.

Very unfortunutly, I couldn't stay the entire show because I had to cath the midnight thirty train home to ttake care of puppy since mum is gone all week-end. It was so fun last niught. Even my big brother Chris and hos wife Isabelle came to support Lucas, and I kow my mum would have gone too if she had been here.

I'm really going to have to cut it short because it is now three o'clock and I have 3 hours to get the house vacumed, myself showered and dressed and then I got to go meet the ladies at the train station.

So enjoy your saturday, I know I will and if a band called "Les Pugilists" come to your town, I hightly recomend you checking them out!

I know, I know... I've been slipping on my blog entrys', but I have good reasons to.

Well, two nights ago, I tried out Sim City 300, and just got sucked into it and pretty much stayed on the computer playing it for like four hours...

And last night I didn't post becauese, my friend Cathy (the trainer from MAC) called me and asked if In wanted to come and watch her do make up for a little fashion show. Naturally I went. She had to do make-up oin four models, and by models I don;t meand your best lookijng friends, I mean MODELS, tall, thin, perfect models. I asked Cathy how she does it, not wanted to kill all of them, she told me you get used to it....I found it hard looking at them and then looking at myself...I know you can't compare but jesus, these girls were stunning. So she did thie girls make-up and even let me help out a little but touching it up before they left. We went over to this new clothing store up on Peel called Etcetera, it's a real chi-chi-la-la kind of place. They house Hugo Boss and they had this designer who came in special to launch the line blah-blah-blah.... Anyways, the place was FULL of media, camera's, chi-chi- important people, publicists, stylists....the works. Needless to say, I felt very underdressed in my Nike running shoes, black mini skirt, and grey knit sweater....

But what I'm really happy about and sorta proud of, was the fact that I talked it up with every one. For the first time in my lifr I mngled with complete strangers. I didnlt feel the need to be following someone else around. I went off by myself and just started conversations with anyine, no matter how chi-chi they were. Usyually I'm so intimidated by that type, but last night it was like I didn't care what these people thought of me.... They had a little party on the rooftop later on that we ( Cathy and I) stayed for. And we actually had a great time with two of the models, who once you got over how genectically perfecrt they were, were really sweet. We laught and talked all evening but I made myself leav at nine to catch the nine- twenty five train home. I did have to be at work for eight after all. I had a great time and I can't wait to do it again...

And now hwere I am at home early bacause there isn;t anything to do at work. It's good because now I have time to update my blog, play a little Sim City and clean up the place in preparation for my guests this week-end....I was suposed to c;ean all day yesterday, but I got home too late to even start to clean...

Tonight, my brother (LUcas) is playing a show at Saphire.. It' his new band's first show. They call themselves "Les Pugiliste", I'm not sure of the spelling exactly but you get the idea... Should be fun, I look foward to hearing them play.

And with that I must go because the clock says it's quarter past three and I still haven't started to clean......

Topic Tuesday subjct: TV FINALES

Three of my most watched shows have all ended this past week:
1) Amazing Race
2) Survivor
3) Friends
4) X-Files

I have rated then on a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest score.

The Amazing Race was by far the most anticipated....And the finaly was just as exciting as all the past episodes. Wasn't thrilled wiht thte winners, but as long as it wasn't Will and Tara, I didn't really care who won. I really love that show. It's so eciting, every episodes I'm on the edge of my seat. I think it's better than Survivor because there is always action. They are always moving from place to place and bitching and whining and being stupid....The Amazing Race has now become my number one show, Survivor has now been moved to second...10/10

Survivor was alright. But if I heard one more thing about "God"and how "God" made Vecepia win and how she's the first African American to win and that's such a big step for all African Americans.... Whatever..When won't it be all about being Black? When is that going to end? Okay so your black, you won, big fucking deal, don't make such a big thing about it. You know, I thing Afican Amercans make such a big deal about their race, but don't realize that they are then only ones who make a deal about it. I think most "whites" are quite comfortable with them now (hello 2002) that we treat each other as equals... Get over it Oprah..oops, I mean Vecepia. She was too bible for me....I think I would have rathered seen Pappy or even retardo-Neleh win...But alas, it was V and now she's going to be building churches all over the world and spreading the joy of Christ everywhere..Hurrah! Way to spend a million bucks!....6/10

Friends was just plain retarded. "Ohh I think I love Ross, Ohhh but I'll marry you Joey.." Oh course she can't have a normal birth. Something had to be wrong or dificult. How come every one on TV has to have a 40 hour labour, painful contractions, no drugs, and a breach birth? Why not just have the dam baby and get on with ruining the show? I'm sorry but no show can survive with a baby. We sure haven't seen Phibi's babies since she had then last year, funy how she never mentions them....ever...nice mum. So now wee are all suposed to be excited about if Joey and Rachel are gpoing to get together and now Monica and Chanlder want a baby too? Come on, mine as well cancel the show now.......2/10

And last night, I watched the X-Files finaly. One word: HUH?. Didn;t they say they were going to answer all questions? Hmmm I must have blinked and missed it because all I saw was Mulder hallucinationg all his dead friends who gave him advice and then him being broken out of a millitary prison and then the last hour was a cheese-ball lovey-dovey story between him and Skully and them him deciding that there isn't a truth out there and Skully convinces him to end his search. What the krunk? Anyways I wasn't impressed. The had an entire season's worth of shows they could have used to wrap things up but instead they fill the season with stories that have nothin gto do with anything and take only two hours to wrap up nine years worth of unanswered questions. Go Chris Carter go! I guess they could only convince David Duchovny to come back for the two hours.... 3/10

And I couldn't care less about Ally McI'm-Starving-to-death-Beal ending. I liked the show like two years ago but the show got very predictable really fast.
Typical episode broken down: Ally is sad, Ally needs attention, Ally wants a man, the Jane Krakowski character is flirting/singing/dancing, Ling is growling or squinting her eyes, Nel or whatever her name is (Portia de Rosi) lets her hair down, Cage or finch? is stuttering/wheezing/being a clown/being "absurd", they all go to the bar, Ally's roomate sings and give Ally advice and a shoulder to cry on, Ally picks herself up and moves on to anothrer man, the end, now just repeat this 100 times and you have eight years of Ally McBeal, or eight years or Crap, you decide.....-10/10

So that was my TV wrap up. I wonder what shows will be reaplaing their times slots? It would be fun if they filled it with old shows like Roisanne, or Three's Company, or just a hole lot of Simpsons. I think they should replay the entire first Survivor. That would be great.

Anyways I don't need Tv now, noit with all the Booty I got for my PS2, I'll be driving all summer long. Which is why I'm updating so early (18h00), I want to have the entire night free to drive until I have to go to bed....

Gentleman, start your engines

(sweet home Alabama......)

Okay, this is going to be good. I have chosen tonight's entry to be all about my birthday gifts. I am one spoiled girl. I am now going to list all the goodies I got in the order I got them ( I apoligize if I forget anything, but it's hard to remember it all!):
1- Marnie, Dave, Roxy and Lucky left me a big bag of goodies to open (since I wasn't at home), the first one I opened was a card the held a certificate for a manicure (awesome!), then I got a Venus Razor (which I was skeptical about before I actually tried it not twenty minutes ago and I can now see what the fuss is about...It's like shaving with a silk pillow...really.), with it I got shaving cream, stickers, a sheep figurine (so sweet), coloring posters, and there was a jar of Nutella....
2-At work, I told you allabout the card Anita made me, she also gave me that awesome make-up case (that I spent some of my afternoon organizing..), a certificate for a one hour massage...
3- From lUcas (part one) the Fight Club DVD (because I've been holding his copy hostage for like six months)...
4- A very "J" card from J
5- Warren's gift (soon to appear here..)
6- From Steph, an awesome book of magnetic poscards that are covers from old pupl novels...totally cool.
7- From Allen, a really sweet card, a big bag of skittles, two kinder surprise eggs (with huge prizes inside!) and temporary tattoos...
8- Card (in German) from Aimee
9- Card from Sylvie
10- From my mum, a recipe binder that has all sorts of info in the back (mesurement conversions, shortcuts, tricks, tips...)
11- also from mum, a new alarm clok/radio/cd player (so now I don;t have to use my sisters)
12- From mum, a little ensemble of shower/bath smell-good things (lily-of the valley, my favorite)
13-from lucas, the DVD remote for my PS2
14- from lucas again, Grand Turismo 3
15- From Chris and Isabelle, a stering whell with gas/brake pedal attachment for my PS2, the V-thunder racing wheel...
16- Nascar Thunder 2002 (nascar racing game) again, for my PS2.

And then all this was toped by a wonderfull dinner prepared by my loving mum. We had veggies and dip and sangria in the afternoon and dinner was Kluskis (polish thing) and pork tenterloin, and for desert, Angel cake with whipped cream AND chocolate fondu with strawberries.. Can anyone say: oink?

I know I say this every year, but this birthday has really been THE best I can remember. I was so spoiled and my friends were just so awesome and my family was too... I can't thank them enought!

I can't wait until next year!

I do realize that it has been days since my last post, but it wasn't for lack of wanting to, it's just that I really liked my birthday post and wanted to leave it up a little longer. I must have read it like ten times, but it makes me feel so happy to read it, but now, since I have new things to report, it's time to change it.

I love birthdays, especially my own. When I woke up, I went straight dwonstairs and opened my gifts from Marnie and Dave (Roxy and Lucky too!). She gave me a Venus shaver, shave cream, stikers, coloring stuff, a gift certificate for a manicure- tons of stuff, I felt so spoiled! We had a huge discussion about that Venus shaver abiout a week or so ago so it was realy funny to get it from her. It ws so much fun to have a bunch of little things too, it was soexciting to open them all....

I had a lovely day at work on my actual birthday (15th). ANita was sure to let everyone know it was my birthday, so I was gettong good wishes from everyone, which is nice. I got worried thought because I got into work early and shen still wasn't there, I was begining to think that she was sick, or stuck somewhere... But as it turned out, she was just finishing my card.... She is such an awesome friend, I really don't know what I'd do without her... She comes to get me and gives me this HUGE card that she made. On the from it has all sorts of Hello Kitty stickers and she amde up some of her own Chinese Haiku crap like the ones that were ion that pad of paper she gave me a while back.. It's become a bit of an insider for us.... Then on the inside she cut out a bunch a Celine Dion pictures with funny quotes next to them, and on the facing page, she did a big Titanic puzzle...Again, a bit of an isider, but I know when she reads this and thinks back to it, she'll have a laugh. Anyways then she gives me this huge gift from her and J. It was a BIG silver, very proffesional looking mke-up case that I had been eye-ing for a while. It's going to hold just about all my make-up and still have room to spare!!! You would think that that would be enough, but it didn't stop there, inside the make-up case was a certificate for a back massage.....this girl really knows me and it shows, I've never had a massage, but I can only assume it's going to be heavenly! We went out to lunch at "move and pick". It was Anita, our friend John and myself. I decided to be a little daring and try sopmthing new. we all went for an oriental soup. But dear God I too kone bite and it was so awefull. I think becasue they cooked all the vegetables in the same water, my veggies picked up a mushroomy taste and it ruined my entire soup, so i didn't eat it and got the usual ceasar salad which was delicious.. but i did take that soup to go and gave it to th ehomeless man I see evey morning. he was so happy and thankful, it gave me that good feeling to give it to him.

So that was it for my birthday DAY. I came back to Marnie's and was feeling a little lonely. It was the first time in my 24 years that I was alone on mt birthday, but since I had gotten all these wonderful gifts all day, it wasn't soooo bad, but lonely just the same. eating your birthday dinner alone isn't fun. I had chicken nuggets, french fries and a quater of a sugar pie.......then another quarter later.Mmmmmm sugar pie!

And yesterday Aniter gave me a party at her house. She had decorated eàwith baloons and A sign that read "Shushy's Bat". She's so sweet. Anyways, it was her, J (who gave a a very very funny card), Steph (who gave me these awsome magnetic postcards that have covers from old "dirty" books), Warren (whose gift will soon be appearing on this site....), Allen (who gave me a bag of Skittles, temporary tattoos, a sweet card and kinder eggs), Pam and Johnny, Pam's cousin Margot (?) and my brother! It ws so awesome. I loved it even more becasue every one was talking to eachother and having a good time.Lie when my brother got trhere, he doesn't really know erbvery one thiere but he still mingeled and talked to everyone and had a good time. It was just so much fun, everyone laughing and talking... Then I got a delicious cake that also read 'Happy Batmitzva Shushy". It wa pure heaven and probably pure fat, but hey, it's my birhtday right? It wass this creamy-cakey-rasberry-fluffy delicious-ness with white cocolatew all over the place....Oh God it was good. Steph also brough like four chunks of cake fron work that were very tasty...from the middle. Anyways the evening ended at about one thirty- two and I was lucky to get a lift from Allen who, as it turnes out, lives very near by.

The evening was great becaue it was so nice of Anita's friends to be so nivce to me! I know that they as my friends troo, but I really only see these peoply like 3-4 times a year and they still came over and even brought me gifts, very sweet of them all. Thank you!

When I got home, I watched the Amazong Racw and was reallt bume to notice that I only taped an hour of the TWO hour finaly, luckily, my mum taped it all...But I have to wait until tomorrow to see it!

And now it's saturday. My only plans are to maybe shower, go to the IGA and clea, clean, clean!

Tomorrow I got home and have my birthday with my family- can't wait. I'll let you know how that went on Sunday night!!

Today's topic tuesday topic: Sue (me)

In honor of my birthday, I have asked each member of my family to say a few words about me. And this is what they had to say:

"Hi Susiannah, I've been thinking all day about your birthday since you mentioned your desire for my memories of that incredible occassion .........................
I do remember that we were rather surprised , and delighted, to discover I was pregnant so soon after Lucas' first birthday .......we were sort of in 'the planning' stage, but suddenly there was no need ! I always knew I was pregnant when dizziness prevailed . I loved being pregnant and was one of the lucky few who feel absolutely fabulous throughout. Although I did all the usual pre-natal excercising. I did gain more weight with you than your siblings, about 25 pounds .............I refused to ever weigh more than Edward!
As you know, the last ultrasound demonstrated that you were to be a boy .......... possibly Morgan Kenneth (as in Ken Watkins) A stupid ad for TIDE or some laundry detergent that involved a boy (dirty) called Morgan made us have second thoughts. However, Susannah was always a favorite name - I had a great-grandmother by that name, and one of our favorite British actresses at the time was Susannah York. Some seious consideration was also given to Francesca (Italian for Francis) and Mercedes was a definite. Your birth date was predetermined because the labour was to be induced ( we lived too far away for my history of speedy deliveries) ..............the 15th of May sounded great to us.
Gilbert Lesperance drove me to the hospital in time for the 7am start to the induction ...IV running etc. Daddy came after he was assured that Lorraine Denis was well installed at home with your brothers and sister. It's sort of a slow procedure to get the labour process in motion, but once I had arrived at 3cm (after about 6 hours of not much happening)..................delivery (under the guidance of Dr Paul Smith) followed in about 5 minutes. Daddy was there to see you first! A quick delivery with NO stitches...... oh yes, in case you were thinking I was incredibly stalwart .......... I had an epi-dural about half-way through the morning! You were so sweet and tiny and smelled so delicious. Daddy loved telling Dr Wong that he was wrong!
Once we were all back in my room, Daddy went home to check on the family and returned later. In fact we went home on day 2! You were nicely jaundiced by that time, and had daily nude sunbaths in Lucas' bed for the next week. No problem with us bonding ...........we are joined at the hip forever !!!!! You preferred being with and/or on Mommy and I was really adept at doing housework and every other activity with you sitting happily on my hip or in a backpack.. You were just the sweetest little girl .........my favorite tangible memory is the family video of you swinging the kitten, standing in a pile leaves, and asking Daddy "is this
cute???. You loved all our animals and in fact did a great deal of "animal role-playing' throughout your childhood ----- always hopping and even running about on all-fours, asking us to guess who you were. Your favorite in those days was a bunny . We all remember the Easter morning you hid under a box in the living room, waiting for everyone to get up and discover the Easter bunny ..except we didn't and slept far too late for the bunny who had been hiding since 5am!
I'm assuming these remembrances are for use today ...otherwise I could go on forever .. so many memories "Mommy, I can't sleep ..(this needs to be in tiny-tiny print) well. you know the rest of the conversation.
Thank goodness you promised to be 5 forever
HA P P Y B I R T H D A Y TO US !!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU SUSIANNAH "
-Nancy, mummy


" I find that over the years I have grown closer and closer to you. I think that we are on the same
wavelenght for many things in the world, and share the same opinions on many different topics.
I love the way you laugh, the way you focus so much on our family, your generous attitute, your
amazing artistic talents, your open attitute towards trying new things (like when we first went
go-karting) - as long as it is with us. You and I get along wonderfully, and for that, who could ask
more.
Your brother who loves you"
-Chris, oldest brother


" I was going to say that you were like the little sister I never had but
honestly I think of you more like a friend (which is better than a little
sister in my mind!) that I am always happy to see or to talk with. I do not
feel that 8 years separate us, either you are very mature or I am very
immature! You make me laugh a lot, you are one of the most caring person I
know and I really love you. You are one of a kind and that makes you very
lovable...Getting along with you and your family makes me love your brother
even more."
-Isabelle, sister-in-law


" When I think of us as kiddies, I remember all those times we played Little Adventurers (my personal Favorite), Barbie(now they all look like lesbians with their chopped off hair,markered green!) and how whenever we played something like Monopoly you could so easily be bribed with a cookie in exchange for Park Place. You were always such a sweet girl. When we got out that old audio cassette a few years ago (you know the one), whenever I hear your little voice "mommie, PANTS,PANTS,mommie...sniff,sniff" it makes me laugh and wish I could just pick up that little girl and squish her with love. I agree with mom that the video clip of you with the kitten is another award winning moment!! (everyone here at the internet cafe now thinks I am nuts because I keep either laughing out loud or getting all teary!)
You used to be so quiet, and I could never understand how everyone (friends, teachers, parents)always saying how funny you were. But you really are so much fun Susie, that I know that anytime spent with you will be filled with laughs (and burps, if I am lucky. so few other people appreciate that!!).
I am always grateful when we switch roles and you "big sister" me, by doing my makeup,hair,and wardrobe for me before I go out. I really am a lucky girl to have you for my sister!
This birthday had made me realize just how much you have grown up and makes me a little sad that I havent been there for a lot of it. You should be so proud when you read what everyone has
written about you Susie, I dont know too many people that can have such nice things said about them - and have them all be true! I look forward to doing lots of catching up on these past years - I am so lucky to have such a loving, funny, caring, generous, and of course stylish Sister.
I love you so much sister Sue, happy birthday. "
-Aimee, big sister


"My sister Sue... without writing a book ( which I could easily do about my
sis), you have been one of my best friends and someone I can always count
on. During the last year ( which wasn't one of my best) you kept me up (and
out of a wheelchair, "no don't lift that!!!), during a time which could have
been a lot rougher had you not been there for me. I am eternally grateful
for that even though it often didn't seem like it. You are one of the most
generous, caring, and good-natured people that I have ever known and if
anyone (and everyone does, but you most of all) deserves to be happy it is
you my sista Sue. It makes me happy and proud to have you as my sister and
to be able to go out and do things together, share the same friends, go to
the same shows/bars, never with the shame the some people have (ugh there's
my brother hide me please). I could easily go on but... i think you know the
rest so i'll just say Happy Birthday from your brother who loves ya tons!"
-Lucas, older brother


All I can say is that I'm one spoiled girl to have such a wonderful family. What they may not realize is that all that they love about me, (generousity, caring, loving, giving...) I learnt it all from them! It's not everyone that has the kind of relationship I have with my family. We stick together and always back eachother up. I am very proud to call them my family, but I'm even prouder to call them my friends.

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Monday, why don't they just call it tired-from-week-end-day?
It was the usual sluggish monday morning. I'm now at Marnie's, happy to finaly be here after lugging my fivety pound bag from work to here. I hat packing. I never quite know what to bring. I always end up bringing extra stuuf I don't reall yneed. I bring extra t-shirts "just in case", I bring a blank video tape "just in case", I bring books "just in case". Just in case what, I'm not really sure but if I need them, I know they are there.

The day went by rather fast. Especially consireding we managed to do just about nothing all afternoon. Tomorrow will go by equally fast becase we have a fun project to work on.

We are suposed to go see Spiderman tomorrow. I'm not sure if we still are, but I hope so. Apparently he can do wehatever a spider can. He spins webs outta sight and I heard he has radioactive sight!

Well I'm sure regretting that bet I made today. I bet a manager at wirk $5 that the Habs would win. Looks like I'm out five bucks. Although..it's still the first period and I guess things could turn around, I hope they do....But quite honestly,I'm not feeling it tonight.
Go Habs Go!
Oh look at that, Carolina scored again...joy.

I guess I'll go and watch the game and see how this is going to turn out.
1, 2
1, 2, 3
1, 2, 3, 4
LET'S GO!

okay so I need to vent a little right now....here I go, brace yourselves:
My day WAS going great, my mum and I are having a fantastic mother's day together and then, not ten minutes ago, it happened. The phone rang that long distance ring and since we are expecting Aimee (my sister) to call today, I picked it up. I say "hello?" and there's a long pause and I know then that picking up the phone was a big mistake.. I know that silence, I know what it means and without even hearing the voice on the other end, I know who it is: BITCHSLAVA! The world's most evil granny. And dispite the note on the phone above the call display that reads: "Warning, do not answer 514-640-**** Danger!!" I picked up. I held the phone for a few moments, the receiver hovering between my ear and the craddle, not knowing weather or not to hang up or try and get throught the agonizing conversation. But it was too late, I'd said hello and now that thick silence was replaced with the fony weakened voice of my evil granny. Her name isn't really Bitchslava, but it's close...and this suits her better. I'm not going to get into why she's a ho, but trust me, she it. And this is her bi-yearly guilt trip phone call and for some reason, I'm always the one who answers. So she's asking me why I haven't called and since she's practically def, I wispered "becase your evil and I can't stand you". She didn't understand, but at that point, I kind of wished she had. Infact I almost let it all out. I was about to tell her al the reasons why I don't call or visit, but then she would win by making me mad. So I decided to keep my cool. She went on and on about how "sick" she is and "this is it.." meaning she's dying, the old bag's been dying for almost 10 years... The conversation went on for like eight minutews until she hung up on me. She always does. What a Bitchslava.

Ahhh much better, now I can move on to happier things, like my wonderfully amazing mum!

My mum is awesoome. Not only is she the most caring, giving, thoughdful person I know, but she's also my friend. She's taught me just about everything I know. She gave me life. and it seems strange to only have one day of the entire year devoted to your parents. They deserve so much more. I'm just going to say right now that :

Mum, you are the best mum for me. I love you with all my heart and I'm so happy to have a mum that's also my friend. You have taught me how to be caring, giving, thoughful, loving...You've helped me through all the break-ups, the tears, cuts and scrapes....You were and are always there when I need you. So than's mum for being you and for giving me such a wonderful life. You've made me the person I am today (except for the drugs and alcohol, that was me).

So I made her breakfast this morning and we just came back from the IGA and now we are going to do water colors while watching the game. It's fuuny though. I'm trying to make her relax and just lie down but all she wants to do is walk the dog, do dishes and laundry... Then I realized that these are things she likes doing. I don;t think she considers hem "chores". She really likes to mow the lawn. She likes vacuming and dusting. These are her day off things. I mean I like doing those hings too, but not always. So I'm just letting her do ewhat she wants and I'll be making her a nice dinner tonight, lemon-chicken penne with salad and freshly baked bread and strwberry shortcake for desert. And this evening, we'll sit on the couch and watch tradin spaces, simpsons and then x-files.

Last night we went out ti the balet. It was "Romoe and Juliette". It was okay. I wasn;t really in the mood to go out, but once we were there and the car sickness fadded away, It was really nice and we met up with Chris and Isabell so that made it fun too.

Oh and I'm not a millionaire, but I did match upo three numbers, I don't think that gets me anything but I'm getting closer. No one won so now the jackpot is like 34 million or something ridiculous like that, I guess I'll be playing again next week. Anita, you may have made a gambler out of me yet!

Happy Mother's Day

So, last night's game was AWESOME! It wasnlt awesome that we lost, but it was awesome that I got to go with my two older brother and have a great time.

Our seats were center ice at the tip top of the molson center, when I say top, I'm talking last possible row. Now you'd think they would be bad seats, but infact they were great, you could see everything from up there. The crowd was crazy.

I don't think I need to give you the play by play sonce anyone who actually care will already know, but it was very exciting. And if it wasn't for the ref's bad calls in the second period, I'm pretty sure we would have won no problem. But that wasn't the case and there isn't much that will change it. The mood of the crowd was totaly quiet and people just left in silence. No boo-ing, no nothing. What a game.

And this morning, for some reason when the alarm went off, I got up, walked over to it and just shut it off because in my mind, I had the day off. I woke up 45 minutes later and realized that I had to be on a train in eight minutes or I'd be late. I chose, of course, to be late and rush a little less. Turns out Aniter was late too, so at least it wasn't just me.

We left work early and I stoped my MAC to buy some new make-up and then we went to eat at "Move and Pick" where I proceeded to stuff myself like a little piggy. After a few more errand, we met up with Steph at McIbbin's pub and waited for J and some work friends to show. It was fun, but I was feeling very shy around the people I didn't know. I can't help it, I guess I'm just going to be shy all my life. We were there until about seven and then us ladies left to go look at "fabric and such".

*Oh and Steph, if it makes you feel any better, I read my e-mail before and Marnie told me who got voted out of Survivor before I got a chance to see it. So sorry I had to go and ruin your eveing like that. Hmm, me and my big mouth. Survivor was the "tear jerker" episode when the castaways get to see a member of thier family.... boo-hoo-hoo, where's my cha-cha-cha? NO but it did give me that little twang of sadness when I saw them reunited with their family. I'm not sure I could survive that long without mine....

Oh God, I ate waayy too much tday and I'm now feeling to consequenses of it. On the train ride home I ate like half a bag of Kernel Californian pop-corn and when I got home I started to drink and now I'm on my third drink and my thoughts are all over the place....I'm hungry but I think I'll yak if I eat anything at this point.

I'm going to be babysitting Dave and Marnie's pets this week, in other wods, I get tospend my birthday in my fortress of solitude. Just me and the pets, quiet all around, doing whatever I want.... Aniter is having dinner for me on friday (my birthday is on the 15, wednesday) it's very sweet of her to do that. I always givemyself "resolutions" on my birthday. idon;t lie doing them oin new years, so I do them now. There are so many things that I want to change or do....I'm already working on being nice to everyone at work, my goal is to have 75% of the people liking me, I know 100% is just impossible, so I'm hoping for at leat 75. Another resolution: listen more to others and only give an opinion when asked for one. I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut sometimes. Like when someonw is telling me a story and I cut in and start saying some thing like "oh yeah me too i did that....blahblahblah..". I just need to open my ears more and be more attenttive to my friends needs. Another is: not to be so quick to judge and to give everyone a chance. To be more generous too....Oh yeah and to run that Jonny Cheesecake into the ground!!!!

Oh no I thing I missed the super sever draw! I'm so new at this gambling thing.. I don;t even know when the numbers come on.. I'd better go check and besides, with every drink it's getting harder and harder to type....

Wish me luck! The next time I update, I may be a millionaire!!!

Just finished watching the Amazing Race. I was very dissapointed to see that my favorite team, team Cha-Cha-Cha, got eliminated. I really wanted them to win. They were the only team that played fair and had the most fun. They are so wonderfully gay it's insane. I love super gay guys. There so.. flamboyante. They just seemed like good people and now the only three teams that are left are, team Smiley, a brother sister duo that are a little too lovey-dovey for sibblings, Will and Tara, the most irritating team there. They are a split couple who fight and bicker on-stop and are really just large sized babies. And then there's the last team, I don't even remember their names because I really couldn't care less, but they are frat brothers (a.k.a meatheads) from Boston. I'm really loving this show, I even love it more than Survivor. It's sooo exciting. Don't get me wrong I love Survivor, but I think I may just love it for old time's sake, you know? I watch it because I always have, it's a habit. It's fun, but it doesn't have any of the nail bitting excitment that the Amazing Race has.....

The day went by pleasently fast. I got all my work done and now, I have the day off the rest before I go out to the game. I have some work to do at home, but nothing major. Day 2 of me being nice to everyone went well. Primarily because the managers I dislike weren't schedule today. Does being nice mean I can't talk trash behind heir backs? Or can I just be a hypocrite? And it is true what my friend told me today.By being nice to everyone, it'll all come back to me. I'm cleaning the slate for everyoine, but once they go in my black list again, that's it. To get on my black list you got to do one of the following:
-disrespect my family
-disrespect my friends
-disrespect me
-spread lies about myself, my family or friends
Do anyone of those things and you can pretty much forget about being my friend and can look foward to me spreading all sorts of bad lies about you.

Went up to Coupe Bizzare againg this afternoon. Lance forgot to color my bangs when I was there last week. So he made a spot for me today. As usual we had a blast talking shit and gossiping. I got a chance to catch up with Plastic Patrick and Jet Phil too, turns out there new album will be coming out withing the next few weeks and they are going to be on the cover of the "best of" Mirror.

It ws so nice out today that I decided that instead of rushing off to my train that I was most probably going to miss, I figured that I would take advantage of it and walk down to the station. It was a very enjoyable 30 minute walk. It would usually tkae like twenty minutyes, but I had lots of time to spare before the niext train so I didi a sort of zig zag route instead of the direct way.

I love downtown Montreal. It's really my favorite place to be. I love the tall buildings, the traffic, the J-Lo's, the noise.. I love it all and I really look foward to someday moving there. But I wonder if I'll still love it as much when I live there. I would hate to hate downtown. I there everyday anyways....Maybe I'd move just near downtown and now IN it... I'm a while away from moving out (at least a year or two) so I won't worry about for now.

And now it's that time that I like to call, bedtime. Actually, I'm going to stay up a little longer and watch some t.v and have some hot milk.

TOPIC TUESDAY: Hockey and why I'm so happy right now.
(Ayotte!Ayotte!)

Whay am I so happy you ask? Because my big brother Chris just called to say tht he bought me and my other brother tickets to the hockey game this thursday! I'm so very excited! He's so good to me that brother of mine! He was calling from the Molson center, he also has tickets to tonight's game, and he has awesome seats, in the reds, near the net. (he put the map up in ,y forum if your interested). I don't really care where we sit, it's going to be so exciting just being there.(I just hope he didn't buy them for us because I gave him a hard time about the tickets he got for tonight.....I WAS really joking eh Chris!)

I never used to like hockey. Infact, until about three years ago I couldn't stand it. I couldn't even tolerate seeing it on the t.v! But when I started to play hockey on the playstation and began to understand the rules, I really started to like it. Then my other brother Lucas, got me and tickets to see the Habs vs.San Jose (like two or three years ago) and it was really awesome. The only reason why I didn't like hockey was because I didn't understand it.

I'm not saying I love it and know everything about it now, but I have a general knowledge of the rules and understand why the whistle is being blow or the game stoped...I know nothing about any of the teams except I know that I only take Pitsburgh when I play with my brother on the PS2. But I can say that I really enjoy watching the games on t.v (playoffs or not) and playing it on the playsation.

I will be having a very special "Topic Tuesday" next week with a special guest writter. So be sure to check it out then.

Asside from the rescent excitement, my day went by well. Can't really complain. I got all the work I wanted to get done done and whn I checked my watch, it was four, time to go. Ususally the last half hour of work is brutally long, but today, since there was lots to do, the time just flew by, and now I'm home and happy to be here. I'm already in my jammies and will be making dinner shortly and then heading off to bed early because I'm soooo tired. Work has just worn me down, but I really shouldn't be complaining, I did get out of a night shift on saturday......

So goodnight and Chris, thank you soo much for the tickets, I'm really looking foward to it.
thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

Sorry I haven't been updating, but I wasn't home all week-end and was far too tired to even consider turning on the computer.

Friday night was that horrid over night shift, from nine until four, AM that is. And there's nothing like an overnight shift the mess your system up. I was fine until about three or so when my body was going: "Hey what the fuck? What are you trying to do to me? I'll show you!". And it showed me alright, it shouwed me in the form of the worst gassy cramps I'd ever had. I stayed the night at Aniter's which is always fun after a new collection because we'er exhausted from all the wok and we get all giddy from being overtired....

Saturday night I had tickects to go see the "Cirque du Soleil". As cheesy as it's going to sound, the only way I can describe it is: magical. This years, it's called "Varekai" and there seemed to be a little less circus acts and more story line, which you you think would be a bad thing but infact it was extremely well done. The costumes and make-up were phenomenal and the set was just awesome, the music is all live too! They put on such a great show and there's sooooo much to look at. Every one is in their character regardless of where they were or could be seen. They are really an inspiring group and I can see why so many people want to be a part of it. And you realize just how good they are becaseu they make every move look easy, they even make flying look possoble. What was even more inpressve was the in this particular show, there were no nets or harness' of any kind, and trust me, some of the things they were doing should require some sort of safety device. Check out the link I gave for it.

So saturday night, after the show, I went to Marnie's to babysit their pets and as it turned out, they came home early and I got tpo spend some of sunday just lazying around with them. Dave (her husband) got me a pair of old skool vans (red & black) which was a very nice thing to do. I get really embarassed getting gifts in front of other people so I hope I didn't seem ungratefulIt, cause I'm not, I'm just shy and I'm especially shy around him casue I don't know him that well. It was fun to just goof off and do noothing. Then sunday night I worked until ten, got home by eleven, in bed by midnight thirty.

Needlesss to say, I was tired getting up this morning and kind of sluggish all day. I think what made it worse was the Anita wasn't there so I ddinlt really talk to anyone. But I did find out that a few other managers are leaving, some I don;t really mind, others I do, butn the problem is that with them gone, the only managers that will be left are all manager that don;t like me. So I gues I can look foward to being picked on until they fire me.....And I'm not exagerating, Iknow for fact that they don't like me. I'm really going to try andf be nice to them all, even if it means being nice to Caroline Courtemanche ( Martine #2). Whatever, it can;t hurt to be nicwe right? And mum always taught me to treat others as you would like to be treated yourself. And it really doesn;t feel nice to be not liked, so why should I do it to others. right? Well this is all fine and dandy to wriute but it will be somethiung else to actually do....will keep you posted.

So now here I am at home, drinking a beer and eating fruit roll ups in my jammies. Just where I want to be......Cathy (from MAC) called tday and she needs a model for one of her calsses and wtns me to do it..sounds like fun but it will be thursday at noon. I'm owed a day off, so I hope I can take it.

Had the day off today. Which is good, but the only reason I have it off is because I'm working a stupid overnight shift to do a new colection. But I really shouldn't be complaining cause technically I SHOULD be working on saturday night too but I have tickets to Cirque Du Soleil and I really didn't want to give that up, especially since I got these tickets for Christmas and had no way of knowing ahead of time when our new collection would be.

I spent most, actually I spend the entire day downtown. I got up at eight and took an eleven o'clock train into town. I wanted to eat lunch with Anita but I had an appointment at the optometrist that ran too long and I missed the chance to eat with her, but we still had time to chit chat.

By this time it was like three and I went to meet Marnie at her work (Tattoomania) and I hung around and waited for her to finish and we went out for a drink and caught up. She really is a wonderfull friend. She always see's the positive side to things and makes you feel really good. Her husband (Dave) is going to be tattooing my elbows this june, or perhaps sooner. I'm very excited becasue I've been thinking about doing my elbows for about two years now and I feel really ready for it. I'm staying at their place this saturday to babysit their dog (Roxy) and cat (Lucky). I usually babysit for them when they go away for conventions or whatnot and I love to do it. Not only becaue the pets are so sweet but going away to theyr place for like a week is like going to my own Fortress of Solitude. Almost like a getaway. So I never mind at all to do it for them.

So now I'm in the process of re-designing my room. I was hoping to wall paper it with a faux outdoor scene, but that seems to be very costly and hard to find, so the solution is to paint it. But I'm still having trouble deciding exactly what I want. But thanks to my very arsty/creative friends Anita and Marnie, I think I've decided on a warm color sheme with stripes and such... Hopefully I'll get this project started soon after my birthday and have it done by early june.

So here is the birthday list for my family, now please understand that these are just general things that I want and I really don't expect to get them, but they will serve as a guide or inpsiration for when you do go shopping.
So with that cleared up, here is the list:

playstation2 games:
-Grand Turismo III
-Tony Hawk pro skater 3
-NHL 2002

playsation2 acessories:
-Steering wheel and pedals (for Grand Turismo)
-Remote for DVD

-double bed
-dispay case for lamb collection (IKEA)
-digital camera (like Lucas')
-make up case from Tristan's (found at the big downtown store downstais at the salon, it's big and silver...)
-M.A.C stuff (can get good suggestions from David who now works a the Olgilvy location, he know me the best from a make-up standpoint)
-Kevin Aucoin book (Face Foward? The first one he put out...)

There are some ideas, so I hope they helped, if you need any more info, then just e-mail me or leave a message in my forum.

It's mum's turn on the computer so I'd better go, plus ER is on now and I haven't been able to watch it in a very long time, so goodnight and until tomorrow!

I'm Baaacckk!
I must thank Chris for bringing over a new computer for me and my mum so fast....Thank you thank you thank you! Not only do we now have a bigger faster computer, but a new screen that's like 3x's thie size of the old one. Having this new big screen willl elliminate the ever anoying scrolling over, up and down just to get the full view of a page.

Well it's been a while and I have to say that I was realy missing the journal writting. I think it helps me keep sane. Without it I felt like I was mising something from my day. My mum liked the extra time we had together, and so did I, but now it's back to the old' routine....feels good.

Since so much time has passed I'll just give the highlights of the past week's events:

My first day back at work from vacation was really hard, I felt so disoriented, kind of like I was new, but by the afternoon things were the same as if I had never left. But I do have to say that I'm really having trouble sleeping and waking up early. I can't seen to sleep the night through and I'm always waking up late and runing to the train. So I tried a new approach: having a drink before bed. I got me some beers and the night before last I had one and was all relaxed and fell aspleep pretty fast, but last night I had three drinks instead of one and I was too tipsy and felt ill so this morning I was a little hung over. I know three drinks isn't a lot but when you havent had ANY alcohol for like 6 months and then you all the sudden start drinking, it hits pretty hard. So I'm thinking I'll need a new solution.....

Sylvie left for Switzerland this past tuesday. We spend monday evening together and said goodbye and stuff. I know I that in the past I've talked trash about her, but the trhuth is, is thta she is a great friend and I do love her and I will miss her. i supose I just say those things to distance myself from her so I wont miss her so much. I usually miss talking in the phone the most. We talked just about every day on the phone, and not that she's gone, I won't have that. So I'm sad to see her go, and I can only hope she'll come back in four months. I never count on it, so I don't set myself up for disapointment.

Good news: MARTINE THE SUPER WHORE/SKANK/BITCH/SHARK QUIT/GOT FIRED!! It's very unclear weather she quit or got fired but either way she's gone and outta my life, so all is well in the work place.

Not too much else has happened since then other than the severe computer withdarwl I've been suffering. I had been feeling very balh the past week or so. The reason remains unknown but my mood has definatly improves. My appologies to Anita for being such a bi-a-tch this past week. I know I was all weird and I wasn't doing it on purpose but I was just feeling lousy, so thank you Anita for being my friend and sorry for the mini fight. It's just hat lately I've been having that "what am I doing" feeling. Every now and then it pops up and it kind of gets me dow. I feel like I don;t know what I'm doing with my life. I see my sister travelling around the world, experiencing all sorts of wonderful things. I see Chris dong great at work, married and hapy. I see Lucas living it up, playing with his band, making plans to travel.. and then theres me. What am I doing? nothing casue I'm too chicken to do anything. But at he same time I get this strong feelng to leave. Not run away or anything crazy like that, but to go somewhere. Like I need to go away on my own. I don't know if it's that I want to move out or travel or what. So all these thoughts have left me feeling confused and funky. I guess I'm just trying to figure out what path I want to take and I'm having trouble figuring it out. Maybe I'll save some money and take a small vacation alone this fall, who knows....

Got a nasty burn AGAIN at work today. I was ironing a pair of pants and when I reached over for the starch, I reaches aoundd the fronmt of the iron and then sizzle sizzle.... I would just like to get hrought one day of work without hurting myself...

ALthough I prefer to keep my birthday quiet, it has been brought to my attent on by a few family member that I need to provide a list of possible gifts, I will do this tomorrow cause I need to think very carefully about this... I would have like to have had tickets (in the red) to game 3 but hey...I understand.....(just joking Chris!)

So mum needs the computer and I'm going to let her cause I know how she feels. But I'm happy to be back blogging and I hope you are too.