Found my smile again.
here, and it turns out my laugh was left in the storage space in the Eaton Center....Thanks to Aniter for helping me find it.

Well it’s been a while, but I guess just haven’t been in the mood to Blog.

Last week was awful. You know when you have one of those really crappy weeks? When nothing seems to go right? When everyone seems to be against you? When you feel all funky and disconnected from everyone. I was having a week like that. And I just hope that this week goes better.

Last night was fun though. It was Mark’s last day working at our store he’s transferring to another one further away) so we (we as in Anita, Spyros, Michel (the store manager), Sean (a sales guy) and myself) went out for dinner. We went to this Greek restaurant called Philinos. It was actually pretty good although I was very cautious about what I ate as not to upset my sometimes extra sensitive stomach. But it was real good. We let the greek (Spyros, obviously) do the ordering and it was all quite good. The spreads were a little iffy but I tried them. And it was just a night of talking and having a good time. Got home at around quarter to two, and Spyros was so nice to drive me almost all the way home. It’s really quite out of the way for hi so I told him to just drive me to the dam that joins Laval and Two-Mountains. I have to admit that walking across that LONG dam at one fifteen in the morning was pretty scary. But he stuck around and watched me walk until he couldn’t see me anymore and he got me to call him when I got in. It was like a twenty five minute walk and there was this guy walking along the dam too....kept my eyes WIDE open and picked up the pace...But made it home in one piece and went to bed and slept in this morning.

Rented Good Will Hunting. Just finishes watching it. I had already seen it but it was on one night on the TV and I feel asleep in the middle of it and I was into it so I rented it and I also rent Insomnia to watch tonight. So as you can see today is all about relaxing and just doing nothing.

This week is going to be a really busy week for me so I may or may not have the time to update every day, but when I can, I will.

Happy Sunday



I think Puppy has the right idea for today....

what a day. what a terrible day. I was in the worst mood and I know I pissed a few people off but today, I didn't care. I just felt like being at home in my bed and not talking to anyone.
Althought I have to say that after the work part was over, I had fun. Marnie and I went make-up shopping which is always a good pick me up for me and them Marc and I wetn out the the movies. We had a good laugh and a nice night.
here's hoping that tomorrow goes better. I guess I'm just in a major funak and have lots on my mind Iand I felkt awful spreading my bad mood around. I could just feel people talking about me all day long behind my back. I just felt like crap. Like no cared what I did. You know, one of those day...but this wine is making it better....

boo-hoo hoooo

I swear, everytime I think about it, my heart sinks and tears fill up my eyes.....

Mum’s home at last!!

She came and picked me up from the train last night after I was done work and she ran up and gave me the best hug ever. I was so happy to see her again!!!

After our little cheeseball moment, we went home and we talked all about her wonderful trip. We talked to like three thirty in the morning about all the things she saw, then we realized that we could be talking about it tomorrow and went off to bed. She got up at her usual 8, I on the other hand was completely exhausted and slept in to like ten thirty or so.

Mum was very anxious to get her pictures developed so we decided to head on out to Wal-Mart to get em done in an hour. And it while I was getting ready that it happened. I noticed something was missing. Something very important, to me at least. Where was my make-up case? My precious make-up case? The one I don;t let get more than ten feet away from me? The one I used every single day? Not here. Not in my purse, in my drawer, under my laundry. Not upstairs not in the car. I called work and asked Spyros to check there. Nothing. My make up case. Fuck. I must have left it on the train. It’s the only other place it could be. I sometimes am in a hurry and have to fish my make up int he train so sometimes I take it out and I must have gone temporarily insane and forgotten it there. At this point my eyes are all teary and I can’t breathe.

For those who don’t know me , make up is my thing. It’s my passion. I love it and love every thing make up related. The case in question I lost contained my very cherished brush collection. All or course MAC. Which means mucho denero. If I have in fact lost it fro good. I have just lost$226.50 (tax not included) worth of makeup and brushes (this is no joke). I called the lost and found but of course they are closed on the week-end and closed tomorrow for thanksgiving. Oh God please let them have it. Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit. I’m freaking out here. And I know what you are thinking Anita, someone is getting me back. I’ll put it back on tuesday. I promise.

Anyways. That aside. I’ve been having a great time talking to mum and hearing all about where she’s been and how Aimee is and all that . The pictures are great. It’s so strange to see her there with Aimee. I’m so happy that she went on that trip. Lord knows she deserves it.

And now mum is napping downstairs so I’ve taken this opportunity to have some more wine and write here. I got spoiled with little gifts thought. I had asked my mum to check out the MAC stores there for a product called Luella Sticky Wicket all over Gloss. I have seen it ion a magazine and it’s only available in London. I thought it was a little lip balm size container but when she gave it to me it’s this big tub of amazing non-sticky pink tinted gloss. I played around with it last night and more this morning and I’m in love with it. It’s perfect for those days when you either don’t have time or want to put much on. It’s truly truly truly outrageous!

Feet are feeling numb....The wine must be working.

I also was surprised with a very cute lamb from Aimee. It’s tall and has looonng heavy legs and a little body with a little squished face. Really too cute. I’ll have to post a picture of it when I get the camera. I miss my seester a lot. I miss her even more knowing that my mum got to see her and give her hugs and stuff.

Ohhh gotta go now, I think writing will be impossible pretty soon.

Two more sleeps until my mum gets back and two more sleeps until I get my life back.

I just want to be able to sleep in. Not have puppy lick me to death at five thirty or six in the morning to go out for a walk. I’m a person who lives for routine and now my routine is shot out the window.


* survivor spoiler do not read ahead *

Okay Survivor. Ghandia, get a grip on yourself, you weren’t “raped”, he apologized and you forgave him so DROP IT! And man drop the feminism too. I’m VERY happy that she is outta there. And that woman with the french braids needs a chill pill too. Oy! I still like Survivor and all but these people stink.Dude, man yo was’up duuude man man MAN! Shut up “dude” I think he could articulate better if he would wipe that grin off his retarded face. Why doesn’t h e go build himself a half pipe for his board?
It would seem that Jeff is pretty tired of the Survivor thing. Is it just me or does he not seem so into it this time? While he was reading out the votes, it was kind of strange that he asked who wrote the nick-name. I thought all votes were supposed to be confidential, but then he singled him out. Jeff, you gotta play by the rule!

Okay just wanted to vent a little. I guess I’m in a little bit of a bad mood. Well not so much bad as tired. Woke up at four twenty this morning to walk the dog, had to catch a five fifty train to work.

Burnt my dinner.
Throat hurts.
Have to put out trash.
Finish laundry.

Cinderella Cinderella

Back at work, my first day was monday. It sucked.

I didn’t know if it was because I was really tired or what but the day went by so slowly. I hated it. I just wanted to come back home and do my own thing. I hated it because it felt the same. Everything was the same. The coffee cup I had forgotten on my shelf was still there, the mannequins I had dressed the week before hadn’t changed...I t was just so much the same that it didn’t feel like I had left at all. Within about ten minutes of being there, I had forgotten the week off I’d just had.

Next thing you know I’m checking my watch every five minutes or so, waiting to go on lunch, anything to get out of there. It really didn’t help that there were no good managers downstairs. I had Mr. Dreppresso and Mrs. Italkalotaboutnothing.

Somehow though, I got through the day. And now today I have the day off because I have to work this week end.

I was supposed to work on saturday but I’m trying to negotiate working on sunday instead so I can go get my mum at the airport. I can’t wait for her to get home! miss her tons and it’s really hard running this house by myself!!!!

And what else can I say? I’m not really looking forward to going to work the rest of the week, but lord knows I need the cash so it’s better than being poor right?

I went out for dinner with my friend Marc on friday. We were supposed to have two other people come with us (JF and Spiro) but neither of them could make it so it was just the two of us.

So I met him at work (Gap) and we went up to his place to get the car. He showed me around his new condo. It is really, really nice. Everything was so new and freshly painted...and their (JF and His) furniture is great. They have the cutest kitten!! Oh my god, I think if I remember correctly her name is...Kioko de la somethingsomething....She’s one of those weird looking flat faced cat....

Anyways, so we went out to eat at this really nice Italian restaurant called Misto. It’s up ion the Mount Royal street on the plateau in Montreal. It’s one of those really “in” places. We went in at like nine and left at almost midnight. We talked and talked it was really lots of fun. Marc is really great. We always have such a good laugh when we are together....Oh and the food was awesome. I never order pasta when I go out but I made and exception this time. I had the garlic spinach fettucini with snow pea and pepper, and we had this delicious apple/cake/mouse dessert....My mouth is watering....Misto, remember that and go.

And lets see, last night, saturday night, Anita and I went out to the Ballet. Sounds nice right? Well it was fun to see her since I haven’t in a while but oh my god kill me now. I like the ballet, when it’s the classical stuff, you know tu-tu’s and tights, this was more like zombies and interpretive dance. There were actually tow ballets we saw.

The first one was called “Gloria”. Which was okay but neither of us could understand the story.....And then, oh god, the second one “Noce” was just...well it was something. It started out with a bunch of guys in zombie make-up and suits sitting ion benches and singing. And then they get up and they like drag the benches all over the place in a very interpretative dance kind of way, i don’t really remember cause I was too busy laughing my ass off. Anita was cracked up too and even now thinking about it I’m giggling. So because she was laughing it set me off and to make it worse the guy next to me was really laughing too. So the three of us are like shaking and trying to keep our cool but these people on stage are just too much to handle. I had to close my eyes to keep from laughing. I was sure we were going to get like kicked out. After a little we all settled down but the “ballet” was shit. Oh man I hate that kind of stuff. But since Anita was there, it was fun, we had a very goods laugh.

And today well, today is my last day of vacation. I’ve been off all week and really don’t know how I’m going to go back. I really don’t wanted to . I’m not ready. I didn’t get all the things done that I wanted to, I’m not rested...I’m stressed now. Trying to organize my week, got to do groceries, got to clean, have laundry to do, the yard to look after, the plants to trim/water/fertilize, dishes from breakfast to do, vacuuming, dog walks, dog feeding.......So really I should get a move on doing this stuff...and stop wasting my time sitting here....

Alright, the friday five it is:

1. What size shoe do you wear?

This one’s pretty funny actually... I’ve never been happy having “large feet” I should really wear like a size 10 and sometimes even and eleven, however, Because I’m so vain, I choose discomfort over big bird feet, i buy and wear shoes that are at least one size too small. I know it’s nuts, but what can I say?

2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Let’s see, I have two pair of dressy shoes (one sandal , one boot) and four pairs or sneakers (diesel x2, nike, vans) And I have a few other pairs that I don’t really wear but don’t through out probably because I spent too much one them.

3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?

Sneakers are the bomb!

4. Describe your favourite pair of shoes. Why are they your favourite?

My favourites right now? Well, I’d have to say my boots. I searches long and hard to find them and when I did, well it was love at first sight. I don’t really have the opportunity to wer them very often but I feel like a million bucks when I do.

5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?

The most I spen on a pair of shoes, for what they were, was about 125$, a pair of Diesel slides I bought last year. I got lucky this year and took advantage of a Diesel shoe sale when I got two pairs for the same price....Had I bought them at regular price, I would have spent almost 250$+.....ouch.



And now with that out of the way. I had the best time I’ve had in a while last night. My brothers and I got together to play arcades. We went to Jillian’s. It’s this huge arcade down town, This place has all the good games. Formula 1 races, nascar races,even an 18 wheeler truck races. Shooting games galore and football, basketball, air hockey..man it’s like a dream place for me. I love arcades. I always have.....So you can buy these time cards to play. Chris and I got there at like eight thirty so we got a three hour time cards and just had a blast. Lucas got there about an hour later so he got a two hour pass. So we played and played all night long. And I mean all night. Three hours. Hrad core playing. I t was the best. I’m actually pretty sore today form shooint hoops and throwing footballs, but it was all worth it. I thin, I would have stayed another three hours if I could have

Can’t wait to do it again!

And tonight? Going out to dinner....It’s a good thing cause there isn’t much food left here right now, I need to get some groceries asap..but the chilly rainy weather hasn’t really inspired me to take the twenty five minute trek to the IGA....Not going to do it, sorry. I’ll go when I’m REALLY hungry!

Well I had a very nice day today.

I let myself sleep in..very in, that is after i got woken up at seven by puppy....But I quickly got back to sleep and woke up at around eleven...Feels so good to sleep in. Just to rest and know that you don;t have to go to work...Now if only I could think of a way to be able to do this for the rest of my life???

Went out to dinner with Cathy. Remember her? I’ve mentioned her several times in her. She’s one of the trainers at MAC..she’s helped me so much in my quest to become a make-up artist...

We met at around four thirty and shopped around a little. Tried to shop at Winners but it was just too much of a disaster.. Then we went out to eat, we ate at this very delicious restaurant called cafe l’etranger...Aniter, you know it. It’s so darn yummy. I was going to try something new but couldn’t resist taking my usual. The “Lauren” grilled cheese. It’s a grilled cheese with grilled chicken and dill pickle, it’s served with a salad and pasta chips, and we had a glass of red wine too. All that for under 14$!

So we spent some time yapping away then Lucas, my brother, met up with us. He had passes to go see Red Dragon. I would have been happy to go but I had to go home to feed the puppy....can’t leave her alone to long.. But lucky him, Cathy was all into going! So I felt better knowing that he wasn’t going alone... He said he had a good time.

And now I’m back at home....drinking my little heart out. Thought I would have some fun.. Finished off the remaining boomerangs that Anita and I didn’t finish this week-end and watched the Amazing Race...Yippee.

And now I’m completely drunk. My limbs are feeling very heavy and the thought of moving...we that’s just out of the question.....I like being this degree of drunkenness. You know when you at the point where it’s still fun, you have all this energy and things are funny....But now I have to go and walk puppy which may be difficult...Then I’m hitting the sack....

Note to self: don’t watch scary movie about people breaking into home while you sleep and terrorising you until they just about kill you -when you are at home alone...at night.

So I thought that renting a movie would be fun. I rented “Panic Room” last night and only got around to watching it at around eleven thirty... I was happy to have already walked the dog. It was a creepy night last night even without 6the movie. When I went out to walk her, it was about eleven or so. It was so quiet! Usually there is some noise, but last night...nothing. Complete silence. And it was kind of foggy because of all the rain. S it was dark, damp, foggy and quiet. Could it get any creepier? I think puppy was freaked out too. She kept looking behind us and her ears were permanently erect....(he he erect!) So needless to say it was more of a run than a walk....and it was fast.

I got in and then started thinking what if while I was out walking puppy someone went into the house and was waiting for me? I hadn’t locked the door so it was possible....SO now I’m standing in front of my house, scared to go in. But then I thought, well if there is someone inside, puppy well smell it and attack. And then I came to my senses...There wasn’t anyone inside, that was ridiculous...I was just creeped out by the fog and stuff. SO I went inside. No one but me and puppy.

So that aside I still thought it was a good idea to watch the movie. This is after I checked all the locks of course. I went downstairs, got the pop con , the blankets and curled up onto the couch, turned out the light...then put the lights back on and watch the movie.

It wasn’t event hat the movie itself was so scary, more that I was already creeped out by other things. SO the movie was over by like one thirty and there was no was I was ready to go to sleep. So I watched tv for a few hours and finally felt tired enough to go to bed. I went to bed at three thirty and when puppy woke me up at seven for her breakfast, I wasn’t so happy. But I fed her and went back to bed only to wake up an hour or so later freezing cold. Puppy had let herself out into the backyard and the back door was left wide open...lovely.

And then I rested a while more, did my work-out tape and now I’m going to take puppy out for a nice long walk....and take the movie back.

It’s nice to have some time off. I think, I was really needing it. I feel so much better already....

I went out to lunch with David yesterday afternoon, we had a real nice time, we caught up and chatted and we ate good food! I ate chicken phat-ty from........from...I can’t really remember the name of the place but it was THE BOMB!!!!!!

Alright, it’s puppy walking time!!