I'm Baaacckk!
I must thank Chris for bringing over a new computer for me and my mum so fast....Thank you thank you thank you! Not only do we now have a bigger faster computer, but a new screen that's like 3x's thie size of the old one. Having this new big screen willl elliminate the ever anoying scrolling over, up and down just to get the full view of a page.

Well it's been a while and I have to say that I was realy missing the journal writting. I think it helps me keep sane. Without it I felt like I was mising something from my day. My mum liked the extra time we had together, and so did I, but now it's back to the old' routine....feels good.

Since so much time has passed I'll just give the highlights of the past week's events:

My first day back at work from vacation was really hard, I felt so disoriented, kind of like I was new, but by the afternoon things were the same as if I had never left. But I do have to say that I'm really having trouble sleeping and waking up early. I can't seen to sleep the night through and I'm always waking up late and runing to the train. So I tried a new approach: having a drink before bed. I got me some beers and the night before last I had one and was all relaxed and fell aspleep pretty fast, but last night I had three drinks instead of one and I was too tipsy and felt ill so this morning I was a little hung over. I know three drinks isn't a lot but when you havent had ANY alcohol for like 6 months and then you all the sudden start drinking, it hits pretty hard. So I'm thinking I'll need a new solution.....

Sylvie left for Switzerland this past tuesday. We spend monday evening together and said goodbye and stuff. I know I that in the past I've talked trash about her, but the trhuth is, is thta she is a great friend and I do love her and I will miss her. i supose I just say those things to distance myself from her so I wont miss her so much. I usually miss talking in the phone the most. We talked just about every day on the phone, and not that she's gone, I won't have that. So I'm sad to see her go, and I can only hope she'll come back in four months. I never count on it, so I don't set myself up for disapointment.

Good news: MARTINE THE SUPER WHORE/SKANK/BITCH/SHARK QUIT/GOT FIRED!! It's very unclear weather she quit or got fired but either way she's gone and outta my life, so all is well in the work place.

Not too much else has happened since then other than the severe computer withdarwl I've been suffering. I had been feeling very balh the past week or so. The reason remains unknown but my mood has definatly improves. My appologies to Anita for being such a bi-a-tch this past week. I know I was all weird and I wasn't doing it on purpose but I was just feeling lousy, so thank you Anita for being my friend and sorry for the mini fight. It's just hat lately I've been having that "what am I doing" feeling. Every now and then it pops up and it kind of gets me dow. I feel like I don;t know what I'm doing with my life. I see my sister travelling around the world, experiencing all sorts of wonderful things. I see Chris dong great at work, married and hapy. I see Lucas living it up, playing with his band, making plans to travel.. and then theres me. What am I doing? nothing casue I'm too chicken to do anything. But at he same time I get this strong feelng to leave. Not run away or anything crazy like that, but to go somewhere. Like I need to go away on my own. I don't know if it's that I want to move out or travel or what. So all these thoughts have left me feeling confused and funky. I guess I'm just trying to figure out what path I want to take and I'm having trouble figuring it out. Maybe I'll save some money and take a small vacation alone this fall, who knows....

Got a nasty burn AGAIN at work today. I was ironing a pair of pants and when I reached over for the starch, I reaches aoundd the fronmt of the iron and then sizzle sizzle.... I would just like to get hrought one day of work without hurting myself...

ALthough I prefer to keep my birthday quiet, it has been brought to my attent on by a few family member that I need to provide a list of possible gifts, I will do this tomorrow cause I need to think very carefully about this... I would have like to have had tickets (in the red) to game 3 but hey...I understand.....(just joking Chris!)

So mum needs the computer and I'm going to let her cause I know how she feels. But I'm happy to be back blogging and I hope you are too.