Well it has been quite an uneventfull day....

The most exciting thing that we did was wash the dog. This may seem like an easy tast, but you people don't know my puppy the water-phobic.

I'm not quite sure where her fear of water came from, most likely from the time when we ploped her into the pool and she couldn't get out...oe the time when we thought locking her up in the shower with me inside to bathe her was a good idea. The only thing that came out of that experience was my cut up feet and a very grumpy puppy.

Things went much better today. we took out warm buckets of water and go the leash out... Three on one- we couldn't loose. But when puppy doens't want something, she'll try her best to get away.

I was in charge of the water dousing and shampooing. Aimee was inchange of the hoding and muum was the water filler. While I doused, Aimee was pulled from one side of the lawn to the next and mum just laughted at our follies. But in the end puppy was pretty coperative, compared to other times..... And now she is back to liking us and no longer smells like wet dog. She carries with her now a lovely odor or freshly washed puppy dos and she is extra shinny....extra cute....extra cuddly.

Two-Mountains is celebrating Canada day festivities. We used to go to them when they were celebrated in the soccer field next door, but now the have moved the fun up by the hight school, which is a drive away....not so much fun. We only used to go for the afternoon bingo. The prizes were uber lame. Like a few years ago I won a salad spinner..and the year before, we managed to win like eight sets of six wine and beer glasses that we never use.

So instead of going up to the festivities...we stayed in and started watching the first season of Sex in the City on DVD that Isabelle lent us. We've been watching it all day long and have just started the second disk..but I needed a little break from it tio came and up date propelly, something i haven't really done in a while.

Watching that show just makes me want to but expensive clothing and move to New Yprk.. I definatly want to at least got here once on my life. My friend Spiro went there about a week ago and told me that I HAVE to go. That it's very me...I think I may try and plan a week-end trip there in the fall. Either by myself of with someone, i dunno. Right now it's still an idea, but I really want to go. It seems like such an exciting place to be. So cool and so many places to shop. I guess I'd better save up my moula.

Sylvie had also told me that she wants go somewhere when she comes back home in august. I sent her an e-mail and suggestred some places. I suggested going up north to do a spa type deal or across the border to a beach. I am really hopin ghtta she will agree to go to a beach.. I'm wantiong to go abck to Ocean City in New Jersey. We could relax on the beach, walk on the boerdwalk, I could scope out the guys.... We'll see I guess.

The fireworks are starting so I'm gonna go alk the dog and see if we can see them from here, so goodnight!!!

Just saying a quick little note. I'm at Chris and Isablle's and we have just finished the biggest diner ever. We've been having so much fun all day lng, I love it when we all get together.

We are celebrating both Aimee's and Isabelle's birthdays. And the best part about celebrating two peoples' birthday is that there are two cakes...and it just so happens that my mum make two different quinds of cheesecakes. One chocolate with oreo cookie crust and chocolate glaze, and the other was coffee moka on a ghraham crust and also with a chocolate glaze....How lucky was I??

We played a very competetive game of croquet, frsbee and just really had a great time.

Chris said that he would help me o be able to post pictures up on here, and as soon as I can I'll be starting my "Friday's Ugliest" which will be pictures of all the uglies from downtown Motreal...this should be really good.

So I'm off, I'm so sleepy after eating so much.. I really need my bed...

I like this little laptop that I'm typing on. I'd love to have one so I could do my updates and play games on the train....

Have a good night and

Happy Birthday Aimee and Isabelle!!!!
I love you both very very much. I thought I was lucky to have one sister, it's even more lucky to have tow now!!

I'll give all the details of the day tomorrow, but for now I need to get horizontal and get some sleep.....
Goodnight

Bingo night turnrd out to be much more eventful than I had hoped.

Things were going well... I had met up with Aniter after work to get a birthday gift for my sista, and we were sup[osed to meet her (my sis) infront of the music world at arouing six fiveteen. Well we had both forgotten that it was the jazz fest so not only were we forced to listen to Jaxzz, but there were tons of people.... So we were getting worried that we may no find her. Six thirty roled by...six forty, six forty five... We not had les than 10 minutes to get ourselves to the bingo.. Aimee finally showed up. Turned out that the bus she got on made major detours becasue of the crap fest and she had to get off the bus like ten streets over from where we were waiting for her. So we eventually met up and we scrambled off to Subway to get somew eats and we were off the the Bingo hall... It was then where things fell appart. When my sister went to get her wallet out of her bag, she couldn't find it. We looked all over, searches all her bags, emptied them on the floor, went out to the street to look, went back to Subways.....no wallet.

It would appear that her wallet was stollen. From the time we left the restaurant to when we got to the bingo hall 1/2 block away! So we wetn to the nearest police station and had to file a report. She cancelled all her cards, had to call London......... If only we had called my mum first, cause someone had found her wallet and had called home. So we get this guyss number from my mum and we call him. He does infact have her wallet and wanted to meet to give it back. He was far, like six metro stops away from where it was lost... Anyways met up with him, he was very nice. All her money was gone, but her cards were all still there, which was a totaly relief to her, even thoughtn they were all canceled. She even offered hima reward but her declined it, said that he just wanted to give back her wallet, and no reward was necessary. Turns out her got our number by calling 411, checking out her name, address and finally got our number.

It was getting late by this time and we ran for the train. I felt really bad that her money was gone, but at least she got her wallet back with her license, medicare, social insurance..all the cards that are a major pain in the arse to replace.

And that was enought excitement for me for the night. We got home and my body was just exhausted! but even thought I was uber tired, I couldn;t get to sleep, when I finally did, it was past one and I had to get up early to go to the dentist.

The dentist. This time it was for a routine cleaning. I hadent; had one since 1998 according to their records. But to my surprise, she said there was barely any tartar or plaque and she was surprised when I told her I never floss. She dentist did say that I need to have my gum grafted in one spot. Grafting souds very...very...whats the word I'm looking for?? oh yes, painfull. So I need to set up a rendez-vous for that, horray. But right now, like ten hours later, my mouth is still achon from it hanging open for like an hour.
Usually it's only open like tht for 5-10 minutes max......

And that was pretty much it for today. I'm so happy it's friday, and I still have three more days off! Tomorrow we are celebrating Aimee and Isabell's birhtdays....Which should be very fun... I love it when we all get together.

Hope everyone is happy with their summer weather.

I have no idea how I made it throught today.....

Talk about low energy. As anoying as it is, I was dragging me feet all day. The hot sticky heavy weather was holding me down...That abd I was omega tired.. I can't wait to have to week-end off. I have friday off too because I worked on sunday, lpus I worjked a few hours on my review last night...so I'm good for hours....

I had forgottrn about my dentist appointment his friday. I'm sheduled for a cleaning. I don;t think I've had one in about three or even five years! It's do mychoppers some good. I jusdt know the dentist is going to go on and on about not flosing. but rally, she should just give up. I don;t floos, never have and most likelynever will. I guess it' just part of her job..

Tomorrow night is bingo night. Wish us luck. It will be Aniter, my sista, maybe Cathy ( from MAC0 and myself....Please "God", let us win big.. I'm going to bring some good luck stuff to encourage the winnings...

I'm going to cut it short cause the thought of sitting here in front of the computer typing when I could be horizontal is making me even more tired...
So good night and Chris...good luck with the cobbling, you'll get it someday, otherwise you're just going to have to come over and make mummy make it for you!

Well I did write an entry last night but just as I wrote my last word, the computer crashed...I hadden't saved so I lost it all. I had no desire whatsoever to re-write and it was getting late so I'm just going to sum it all up here today.

Yesterday was a beutiful day. The sun was sunny, no clouds in sight, there was a refreshing wind..it was a perfect day. Lucas stayed an extra day so we were all (well almost all) herre togfether and we had a ton of fun. We were getting bored so I suggested thatwe go play some frisbee in the [ark. After searching the house for a frisbee and not finding one, we borrowed one from the neighbors kids and went to the park to play. It took a few tries but we all got the hang of it pretty fast. It had ben a long, long time since I had thrown a frisbee. It really was lots of fun. I made a few dives that I thought I was going to regret this morning but I was alright, a little sore but alright. We enjoyed it so much infact that we went back to play some more after dinner!

And that was pretty much my day yesterday. We had some BBQ, watched some TV played some PS2..the usual and then Lucas went home, and I got ready for bed.

Work wetn really well and really fast his morning. Working this week end was a really goos idea. It gave me the freedom to really take my time this morning. I had two helpers to help but one of them is quite slow and the other, it was her first time ever doing anything visually related so she needed to ahve everything explianed to her, which is fine, but time consuming when you don't really ahve that time to spare. Everything went well though. I got the windows done by opening and everyone was happy.

And after the window, I cleaned up a little, then went for my hour break, came back, trained that gilr and before I knew it, it was three o'clock, time to go.

I just got home a few momments ago and I have to work on my evaluation for work I've been putting it off and off but now i REALLY have to get going opn it or I won;t get a review at all!!!

Oh, I tried the new McDonalds veggie burgers....very veggie-burger-ish.... Like very crumbly and dry. it's suposed to be fromthe Yves line of vegetarian [roducts, but it no taste so good. And I jusdt heard on the radio add for it that " veggie burger may have come into contact with meat or meat products..." Then why bother really? I was listenening to a radio show last week and they were talking to a McD's rep aboutthe new veggie burger. She claimed that it would be cooked in a veggie oil, in seperate vats but the fries would still be cooked i the beefy fat... So if you are a veggitarian, then you can't even have the trio. Then tghe rep was saying that the veggie burger isn;t reqally for vegetarians, but for people looking for a healthier McD menu.....How very lame.... If your going to do something, then do it at 100% or not at all. It your goignt o make a veggie burger, at least offer a trio like a sde salad instead of fries, or change theiol you cook them in....BOOOOOOOO McDONALDS!!Boooo!hiiiiisssssss!

Anyway, I really have to get going on my review. AmericanPop Idol is on tonight and I really want to have it done before them....

Have a good night and a good morning

What a day....

Went in to work at around noon, but not before shopping around at Simons. Found a nice black top....finally. I saw a few other good things but decided to wait on them. It's always much more fun to shop when you are with someone else.

Work went well. I got all the work I wanted to get done, done. I feel much better about going in on tuesday now.
I left at five, and took a six o'clock train home.

The train ride was nuts! When we got out of the tunnel, I could see that the skies were loking pretty mean. And at every stop, it got darker and darker until the shies just opened up and let it all out. It was nuts! I could berefly see out side the window becasue the rain was pouring so hard. It was even comming in the train where the cars meet! So all the stairs were now wet. And there was a ton of lightening bolts and I'm assuming there was thunder too, but I couldn't hear it.

The storm only lasted about ten, twenty minutes at the most, but it was definatly intense.When I got to my stop, the rain had completely stoped but when I loked around, I could see that all the flowers, grass andtrees had been trampled by the storm. There was a tree about two streets from my housr that got hit by lightening and as laying in the middle of the road. It was all charred down the middle. The people who's property it was on must have been really freaked out!

Lucas is still here and he met me at the train with pupy who was very happy tro see me. And hje told me all about the storm happenings here. Apparently the power went on and off for like twenty minutes and the wind was blowiung the trees so hard they were nearly horizontal!

We rented another movie, this time it was "Harry Potter". We kind of just rented it because nothing else was in and after hearing so much about it, you kind of have to see it, even if you don't really wanna. Lets just say it was ok. Nothing more and nothing less. there didn't seem to have much of a plot or climax. It was kind of just there, just a movie. I got the same sort of feeling that I do when I watch a sitcom on the T.V. And all I could think about was the SNL skit with Rachel Dratch when she immitates him..Anyways, I'll give it an E for effort and a 5/10, right down the middle.

It's going in midnight and even though I have the day off tomorrow, I don;t wan to go to bed too late or it'll mess up my sleep for the rest of the week. So goodnight adn happy St-Jean the Baptiste........osti calisse de tabarnacle, peps,i may-west.

I know that my entries have been very eratic, but work has been a total bi-a-tch this week. And I've been distracted by my sister's visit...

I had to go into work today, and will have to go in tomorrow too. It sucks but it's all to make tuesdays' return easier. I'd much rather work the week-end than have to go back to work an rush and stress over somthing that could be prevented...know what I mean?

Lucas came over tonight....A very nice surprise. I had plan to go do a make-up juib with Cathy. She was doihng make-up for a play that is showing downtown, and she invited me along to help her. but she called and said she was feeling too run down. It was fine. I had woken up at seven, at work by eight thirty and had just gotten home. I really didn;t feel like taking the train back into town. Not the way I was feeling. I got really tired as soon as I wasa done work. Mylegs jjust about gave out on me. So as much as I would have liked the experience, my body was telling me otherwise. I just need a good night sleep and I should be ready to go.

We rented "The Mothman Prophecies". The movies is based on actual events...weather or not I believe it, is another thing.. But it was a little creepy, or at least Richard Geere was...ewww.

And that about did it for today. It was hot and sticky out. The kind of day where I prefere the indoors. I'm goingt o try and get into bed soon, so I can at least get eight hours of snoozing in.

We got yet another new managerin at work .His name is Marc. At first he seemed really snobby and such. But today he really warmed up to me. He chatted a while with me and we joked around....Very nice (so far anyways).

My hellbows are now beginnign the flaky peeling stage. It's very hard to resist the picking but I know that if I do, it'll just mean having to go back for touch ups and starting all over. So I do my very best to keep my hands off. The stars look like this and are about 3 inches in diameter .. Thaey are a little different, but prety much like that. I'm very happy with them. They turned out just the way I thought they would...

It's almost eleven and I need to get myself going to bed befoire the saturday night insomnia gets tome. If Iti does, them I'm finished!!!

Good night all, anfd I will really try and get back on track with the entries....I don;t like missing a day, but I really have been too busy and distracted....

Chris the cobbler recipe is in the forum

*"promo guy" you can leave comments in the forum....and thanks for reading. Haven't had a chance to fully visit your site yet but I'll let you know when I do.

oops, missed a few days...But it's all for a good reason.

My sister came home tuesday evening. Her plane landed at around seven, but she only got out of the gates at like eight...so there was a lot of waiting around. And all the waiting was making me even more anxious to see her. She finaly emerged and the family was reunited again at last......awwwww.

I'm very happy that she is home. I have someone else to talk to, and when mum is away at her meetings, I'm not left alone.

Got the hellbows tattooed yesterday. And I have to admit, it really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had been expecting much, much worse, but it went by really quick,, and I know it helped that I know Dave and we talked and laughed all the way through. It only took three hours, maybe a little more and both elbows were outlined and filled. And now I'm left with two very swollen hellbows. The skin that is usually all floppy at your elbow is now stretched out and very pouffy. Aniter said it looks like I have fat people arms....They jiggle when I walk. It feels like two pockets of water stuck in there. Not very enjoyable, but a small price to pay for something I've wanted for a long time.

And besides that, work has just been out of control, actually I really shouldn't complain becasue I only worked like four hours yesterday..but it's more the level of stress there is at work right now. We have a visit from corporate and everything has to look perfect. So everyone is on everyone elses' case to make it look good. That means people constantly freaking out becasue the jeans aren't folded right, or there aren't enough red polos on the table....blah, blah, blah. They all complain, but do nothing about it. Hey guess what? It's fucking clothes. Thats all it is. If we were seeling fine jewlery, then I could undersatnd the fuss, but it's khakis, and t-shirts..Lets all get a grip on reality!!

We got a new general manager at work. She is replacing that whore Martine. I've never worked with this new woman before. But everyone seems to go goo-goo-ga-ga for her. I've met her in the past, and she wasn't especially nice to me. I don;t dislike her, but I don;tliike her yet either. I really don't have any opinion of her right now sine I've never worked with her, as long as sdhe is fair andfollows the rules, it should be alright......I'm hoping. I guess anything is better than Martine the super Ho.

Anyways, one more day of work and it'll all be over, then it's the long week end and I plan to just saty at home, and vegetate.....

Ahhhh who knew home could feel so good, you nkow what they say..home IS where the heart is..and in my case, where the mummy and puppy is...

Monday, monday (la,la,lalalala,so good to me...). I was thinking that today was going to go by painfully slow, but infact, it wetn by very, very quickly. There was toins of stuff to do, so the hours just blew by. And all the while all I could think aout was comming home and sleeping in my comfy familiar bed...

Aimee (my sister) is comming home tomorrow... I can hardly wait. It's been so long sonce I've seen her. Her flight gets in at around seven, so less than 24 hours to go! I can't imagine how she is feeling. It is her birthday today so: HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEE!

And besides that , not much else to report....This is going to sound really gay, but ity"s nine o'clock and I'd better get to bed. I do have to get up at 04h40 to be at work for seven tomorrow, and I know there is lots of work so I don't want to be all groggy and tired...

early to bed, early to rise,
makes me healthy, wealthy and wise!
(or so they say!)



hello

Had the strangest, scariest dreams last night, I'll explain later, but let's satrt with yesterdays events.

But all day long yesterday I felt all funny. Roxy (doggie) woke me up for a walk at about sevebn thirty, we went out qand when we got back in I gave her and the cat breakfast adn I layed doen on the couch again. And from there I was drifting in and out of a deep sleep until almost three o'clock! But it wasn't just the lazy sleepy feeling, it was uncontrolable exhaustion.. I couldn't keep my eyes open to save my life...starnge.

When I finally did get up at three thirty or so, I did the dog walk thing again and took a shower, ate breakfast and watched saturday afternoon T.V until almost six, then I decided to pick up some movies, but I didn't know where to find a video store around here, and since it was rainingm I didn't feel like walking around town in search of a blockbuster. So I did a montreal map search on the computer and found the nearest one to be the one by atwater metro, not too far, but a trip just the same. So I got dressed adn ventured out into the rian. I got to the blockbuster, made my selection (The Others, Artificial Intelligence) and made my way to the cash. The problem: didn't have a card and even when I gave my phone number, it didn't register... The guy was asking me for photo ID and a recent proof of address...I'm trying toi rent videos here, not escape the country!!!!SO I left disappointed and empty handed....I called home just to be sure that we did infact have a membership there, we did and my mum gave me the card number and when I went back to the video store and gave them the number, it worked, the problem was that our last name was spelt wrong in their computer...SO now I was happy and made my way back here to enjoy some entertainment.

Watched The Others first. I felt like being creeped out, considering I was alone and it was dark, it worked rather well, almost too well. I guess that's why I had some nighmares last night.... The movie was good, I'll give it an 8 on 10. Worth renting, I'm not going to say anything about it, so as not to ruin it for anyone else, but defibatly go rent it.

And then I watched a little bit of saturday night live and drifted off to sleep on the couch. Then the dreams started....

I was dreaming that there was war. Here, in Montreal and in my town. Bombs were going off everywhere, explosion, fire, pannic, screamng, death, running, the whole nine yards. I could smell burning homes, I could feel the heatand impact of the bombs when they hit. I could feel the fear I was feeling in my dream, and when I woke up, I could feel my chest still tight. It was really scarry. I hate these kind of dreams the most because it could actually happen. I hope it never does, but it is a possibility. I can't even imaging what all those poor people are going through...They must be so scared, never knowing when the next bomb will hit, never knowing if your going to live through the day...It freaks me out.

Okay, let's move on...
Watched A.I this morning. Beside Haley Osmond, the movie was good. The kid IS a good actor, but he's always wispering...in every movie he does..so it was a little anoying but a tear jerker just he same. I'm not sure if I would have gotten all veclemped if I wasn't so pms-y.....It is a little long too, just over two hours, but enjoyable, 8 on 10.

Now that the movies are watched, I have to return them and it's still pouring rain out. I was hoping that it would let up a little but there doesn't seem to be much chance of that hppening, so I guess I'll just ahve to grin and bare it....

All I really feel like doing is nothing...or going to get a back massage....again....

Aimee is comming home on tuesday!! I'm very excited to see her...As I'm sure she is excited to come home! This week comming up is a real busy week at work which is a big bummer, but at least I might be able to leacve early on friday and have a lng week-end with her....I'm going to try and take pictures with Lucas's digital camera and put them up....

Well until tomorrow...It' goinmg to be a long good week,my sister is comming home, I'm getting my elbows tattooed on wednesday, liong week end with my sister, celebrating her birthday and Isabelle's birthday...Maybe we can have a B-B-Q, weather allowing....I think all this good fun stuuf will take away from all the crazy work stuff I have to do this week...

I miss you mummy! I'll be home soon!

oh yeah...
Just got back from cashing in on my birthday back massage so this entry will be a litle short casue I don't want to lose this relax feling I got going on.....

It really was super, but I have to admit, I was really nervous before going in... All day I was feeling nervous
about having to be naked, oni a table and being rubbed down by a complete stranger. But it was all so relaxed and the lady was a real sweetie. As soon as I got there I didn't feel shy about stripping, I mean it's not like I had to do it infront of her....My "bathing suit area" was always covered and even if it wasn't, I know it wasn't a sexual thing, it's her job and she is a perfessional...so it was very easy.

Some things felt a little weird, like having my butts jiggles and rubbed...and my kneecaps rubbed, and a forehead massage..They were weird but god at the same time...

I can't say that I left there feeling totally refreshed and relaxed. I was kind of tense during because I don't know
what to expect or where she'd rub next, but I can tell that the next time I'll be able to really let go and relax.

The other thing was that about twen minutes into it, I got a nosebleed. So I was like " sorry, I'm bleeding all over your floor, can we take a break?", I felt a little embarassed but it passed quickly and she continued and all was right in the world.

Afterwards, when it was all over, I went out and saw Anita waiting for me. She looked so refreshed and relaxed, as opposed to me who looked like I just rolled outta bed, me eyes at half mask, my hair all mesy, my feet dragging.....It felt like I was somewhere else, I felt sorta disoriented but in a good way. It was quite the experience and the good news: they are covered by my insurance...so I'm thinking once a month we go for masssages....hell, maybe even twice a month...twice a week, twice a day.. I realy don't know why I
never went before...And if you never went, then go!!!

Okay, I'm going to go now and I'll tell you all the other stuff thats been going on tomorrow, for now, I'm just going to enjoy this mushy relaxed feeling and hope it doesn't go away....

Early day at work this morning....up at quarter to five...at work by seven. The good thing about starting early, is finishing early..I can look foward to finishing at three tomorrow too! I have an appointment to get my hair trimmed and shaped at coupe bizzare.....But of course, whenever I'm about to change my hair, everyone seems to notice how nice it looks....One good hair day wont make me forget the other 364 bad ones...The appointment stands.

I'm in the process of baking some brownies for my hairdresser/. She's really sweet, her name is Veronoque. I usually go to Julee, but she can sometoimes convince me to cut too much off, or convince me to shave half my head as she has done in the past.... SO whenever I want a trim and only a trim, I go with Vero.

Then I'm off to babysit Marnie and Dave's pets until monday, possibly sunday..... It'll be nice, and it's not for long so I really don;t mind...

Mysister may be comming home soon which is very exciting. Althought she has been gone for quite some time now, I've been missing her more lately. It's like she's TOO far away now. It'll be good to se her. She's trying to come home for her birthday (17th), but we havent heard fro her yet so her date of arrival is to be determined....can't wait thouh////

It's also Isabelle birthday this week! (my sister in law for those who don't know) I mmiss her too, and my brother....We haven't; gootne together since my birthday, or the week after my birthday...too long ago anyway...

I have Lucas's digital camera for a little while and I hope to be able to figure out how to put some pictures up on here...Hopefully I'll get it all figured out soon...

And I cannot wait until friday....well friday after work...I'm (with Aniter) am cashing in on the hour massage certificate she gave me for my birthday. I've never gooten a massage, but I'm sure it's gonna be good, especially after this crazy busy week at work...I'm looking forward to it.

Hooo doggie I am pissed. I had just written a full blog, hoping to get it done before dinner, allowing me to go to bed early..and thenI took a smll break and opened another windowe and erd steph's journal.. All I can say is that do not go to the link about Hillary Swank..I made my computer crash and I lost it all. I had been typing feverishly fore like an hour, even spell check it for Aniter and now I'm back at aquare one...not at all feeling like re-wrtiting what i had cause we all knopw that you can only say it once and then you just can't get it to sound right again...well at least I can't.

So I'm just going to summerize what I talked about and cut it short cause time is a wasting:

-rainy days in Montreal and how the rain freaks everyone out
-me peeve with big umbrella's and careless umbrella carriers who poke you i the eye/shoulder/neck/head...blah..blah
-why i love a rainy day....the smell, the tension, the downpour....yadda, yadda..
-what I love to do on gloomy rainy days...blah, blah, rent cry-type movies...blah..blah....feels good.....
-saw brother after work....miss him.
-will borrow digital camera and post picture on site soon....yak...yak..yak...

oh hell forget it, now I'm just not into it so I'm just going to sign out before I em-bare-ass myself...

As it turned out, dispited the total inconvinience, the meeting last nioght was sorta fun. It lasted the full three hours and since I had an hour to kill before my train, Aniter and I went out for tea and chatted.

Unfortunutly, I got the sunday night insomnia too.....It wsn;t so bad thought, got to bed at around one thirty, alarm went off at ten to six, got out of bed at ten past six....rush,rush,rush!!

Work went by so increadibly fast! It was like I was moving in slow motion while time went by twice as fast, but I got things done.....it was weird. Before I knoew it, it ws half past three adn almost time to go home....

I totally crashed on the train, mouth open, drooling, head bobbing- the works and now I'm feeling very groggy. But I must and I will do my work out tape. No more excuses!!

My friends brought me two other Buffy tapes to watch, these are the rest of this season so I'm really looking forward to it. Who would have thought such a gay sounding sdhow would be sooooo captivating and exciting?!

Oh God, my neightboe just stoped by...Before I go on, let me explain to you a little about my freak neighbours....
They moved in about three or even four years ago: The Bar family. They are THE most creepy family I have ever seen, or not seen. They have like a million kids. All of which are named after people in the bible. They are uber religious, and I mean uber. He's an evangelist at a church in two-mountains.Their kids are all home taught and becasue of this lack interaction with other kids. So when the other neirborhood kids are around they go nuts! The father looks like a serial killer, he's tall (maybe 6'3") really skinny, wears huge glasses, a farmer type b-ball cap or tuque, the wife is average height, weights like 2 pounds, fire red hair and is never outside, never leaves their property...Theiur kids all have red hair and don;t leave the property either. They only play outside after dark and never help with yardwork... I saw the oldest one the other day washing their mini van in the rain...in his soccer uniform???? Oh yes the mini-vans... They host a post church bible camp at their home every sunday and everyone from the church goes over to his place,a dneveryone have a freaking mini-van, and our srteet isn;t that big and when you cramp like ten mini-vans onto it, there isn;t much space for anything else. It's happen a few times that we haven't been able the leave the house becasue iof the stupid mini-van parade.
So, my neighbour comes over and says he needs a favour from her......It's his thirteen year old daughter's birthday and he wants to take her on a date. So he wass aking my mum if she could "chauffeur" them to the restaurant...
So my mum came running in the house to tell me and she can't belive she just agreed to it...They just left a moment ago. I watched her go up to their door i a chauffeur hat, and I herd her say: "I'm your chauffeur Goeffry" (or somthing like that) which was reallt funny, and then she led them into the car and they drove off.....I got my mum to leave me her license plate number....just incase. I said I'd call for help if she wasn't back withing the hour....

I hoipe she comes home ino one peice...He didn't seem to be armed....Maybe he'll torture her with verses from the bible....Bibled to death!

Alright, time is a wasting and I got to go work out, dine, and finish the laundry I half started yesterday and squeeze some Buffy in there somwhere....

Asta luego!

It's two-thirty in the afternoon and I'm already having to get myself ready for work at six....
I have to go to a meeting tonight for work, from six until nine. But my trains are only at 15h55 (which gets me downtown at 16h30) so I'm going to have and hour and a half to kill and then my train home is only at ten, so another hour to kill. Not my idea of a good relaxing sunday.....
Let's just hope that the meeting will be somwhat entertaining so it won;t seem like a complete waste of my time, at least we're getting paid for it....
Finished watching all three tapes of Buffy....I think I'm Buffied-out. but the show IS really good.....can't wait for the new season to start in like a year....
We'll since it's so early in the day, I don't really have much to say and I don't see myself updating again tonight when I get home at like ten thirty cause I have to work monday morning at eight....
So good day for now and goodnight for later.

Well saturday has come and gone. Can't complain though, just sat around realxed......

Can't keep my tongue from touching mynew white filling at the back of my mouth. It feels sorta chalky....not very pleasant. I woke up and my jaw was still sore. I guess yors would be too if your mouth was hanging open with two people's hands jamed in and a bunch of instruments were stuck in it for a half hour.....

Let's see, woke up rather early, which is too bad since my usual saturday night insomnia was moved to friday and I was up until about three so I was pretty tired.... But thankfully, my saturdays don;t require much energy.
I git up, had a nice cup of tea and played a little ps2, sim city and then started to watch one of three tapes of Buffy that my friend from work lent me. Not don't give me any crap for watching Buffy. Until you've seen it, don't comment. I really enjoy it, at times yes, it's a little dumb and very teenager-esque, but that's sorta what I like about it. Also I find mysefl watching Smallville... I dunno if it's because of this or the actual story, I'm thinking a combination of both.

And besides that, while I was out walking my doggie, this guy walks by me and sings: "Sue,Sue, Sue...Sue Rupnik", at first I didnl;t recongnize him, but when I got closser, I saw it was Andy. Andrew Davies. A guy I went to hight school with and had the biggest crush on for years. We were good friends. We used to go to the arcades every week and exchange Mortal Kombat codes. I was the on;y girl that actually played the games, the other ones just hung out and looked slutty. We used to bet money on who was going to win and has tournaments. At school we'd sell the codes to little kids for like ten bucks....We (andy, myself and two other boys) had like a secret society for gamers. We'd meet at lunch time at a secret location or I'd slip them yellow envelopes in the halls all secret like. My code name was "X" and we had secret hand shakes and signals....the whole ten yards.But we'd never talk to eachother IN school, our friendship was top secret, it just added to the fun, made us feel like spies....

I have thought about him on a few occasions, mostly becasue Iheard he wasn;t doing very well, drugs, depression and such, he kind of dissapeard for a while.. But I was happy to see that he was much better and feeling happy.

Usually when I meet someone I know on the street like that I just say "hello, how are you, what's up and good-bye". But I decided to walk a while with him and I was good to catch up. It was comfortable. Now don't go getting any ideas, I'm not at all interested in him anymore, we were good friends is all, and it was good to see him.
End of story.

So it's midnight ten and I just know I'm going to be up all night like every other saturday. It's okay thought because I still have like ten Buffy episodes to watch...that and SNL is on now,
so off I go.

I'm not alone in the search

Went to my dentist appoinment this morning. The cause of all that pain in my mouth was two miniature cavities on my back tooth. My dentist was very surprised that such a tiny cavity cause me so much discomfort, but when the drilling started, she realized that they were small, but they were also deep. So drill and drill she did.

My apponment was at eleven this morning, she froze me at around eleven thirty, and up until about an hour ago, I was still numb. That's six hours of the entire left side of my face, including my tongue and lips, being frozen to the point where I was drooling and unable to eat without dribbling like a baby.
But the procedure was very fast. It took only about 25 minutes to x-ray, freeze, drill and fill the cavities, and how much did it cost you ask. Well an hour at the dentist would have ran me just about $200.00!!! Thank GOD for insurance. I mean two hundred smackers. It's insane!!!!

I was quite dissapointed that she found the cavities. It has been about seventeen years since I had my last cavity. I think I was seven, or maybe even younger....I've only had two, until now that is. And I'm not the kind of girl who is super into cleaning my teeth. I brush 3 times a day like most do, never floss.....But I guess I'm just lucky enought to have these super resiliant teeth....It's a good thing because I love sweets too much to ever have to cut down on them... I'm hoping that I'll be able to go another seventeen years without cavites...
And lets see, after the dentist we (my mum and I) went out to buy flowers for the garden and we also picked up a movie: Vanilla Sky

***CAUTION IF YOU HAVE NOT YET SEEN THE MOVIE VANILLA SKY, DO NOT READ ON, THIS PORTION TO THE BLOG CONTAINS SPOILERS***

Okay so I've heard all sorts of things about this movie and none of them good things reall, but I had to see it for myself. And it's not that I completely hated the movie, I just didn't completely like it either, it was sorta just there.
I think that becasue I had an idea of what the movies was about, I could look for things and expected things to happen. Like I know that most of the movie was a sort of dream and I had that in my mind when I started to movie, so I was looking for signs that the scenes were a dream and I kind of figured most of it out. It's just the ending was so slow and weird. I know lots of people didn't like it becasue it wasn't believable but HELLO, it's a movie, you think Jurassic Park was real ? Movies are suposed to be fake, if they were real, then they be documentaries, not movies. But anyways the end was too slow and sorta jumbled together. It could have used an extra trip to the editing room. but you know, I gues it wasn't so bad, but very all over the place...and it was too bad that throught most of the movie Tom Cruise's face is all busted up... I'll give it an E for effort and on a scale of 1-10, I'll be nice and give it a 6.5.

**VANILLA SKY SPOILER NOW OVER***

So Aimee (my sister) is in Switzerland now. She's been travelling all around Europe for the last two months or so and now she's there, with Sylvie. She just called me today and it was really weird talking to Sylvie and then her passing the phone to my sister.....It made me feel like I was the one that was far away, and I guess in a way I am. I was happy that my sister was there because she was able to meet the famous Visar.

Visar, in case you don't know is Sylvie's husband, they got married over a year ago and they live in Switzerlad. I have never meet him or spoken more than ten words to him at a time (he doesn't speak much or any english). So now I had a chance to hear what he was really like. Aimee said he seems really nice and that they are really happy together.....It made me happy to hear, also I was relieved....But at the same time I couldn't help but feel really bad. I was feeling bad because all this time I had doubted Sylvie. I doubted her love for him, I didn't like,him becaue it was because of him that Sylvie didn't come home that summer, and it was because of him that she now lives there, away from me. I guess I just finally realized how selfish I was being. I wanted Sylvie to stay here with me and be my friend andI didn't want her to go away. And becasue it was Visar that took her away, it was easy for me not like him even thought I never even met him.

I guess it just all boils down to the fact that I just don't know what love is. I don't think I've ever really been in love so I can't understand how it is to be so in love with someone that it becomes more important than anything in the world. I guess love really is blindness....

It kind of sucks, never having experienced the love that every one seems to be talking about. And I guess it's a bit of jealousy too. I wouldn't mind feeling love like that.
Anyways, I was happy to hear that she (sylvie) is okay and Visar is nice, but it made me feel like such an asshole for not trusting Sylvie. One of my closest friends for almost ten years.....TEN years and I don't belive her when she says she's in love. I've been really mean to her when all along it's me that's had the problem. I just need to let it all go and acept the fact that she has a life over there in Switzerland and the reality is that she'll probably live there, without me....and that makes me sad, and miss her even more.

I wish I could go back and be a better friend to her.

It's Sue, Sue in review......
Went out with Steph and Aniter tonight. We went out to play B-I-N-G-O! It was fun, no winnings, but it was fun just the same. We all bought new ink blotters as a good luck thing, I got this really dirty looking double headed one.....couldn't resist. We laughed, we cries, we kissed thirty bucks good-bye.....

I did some shopping after work too. I bought this really nice tube dress from work. Black of course and it's so greaty becasue it has a built in bra, so I'm "supported". I also bout a apir of SANDALS or wooden flip flop type shoe and of course, sonce it was payday, I went to MAC. I went there at the last minute and got sucked into it.....I really only needed an eyebrow pencil, but the had a new colection out so I bough an eyebrow powder (cork) instead, and a white mascara (that only me seems to like). OH well, can't please every one right???
I have the day off tomorrow, but it's not for fun and games, infact, it's quite the opposite. I ahve a dentist's appointment. I think may either have a cavity or my filling a cracked/fell out. I dunno but something is up in the molar area of my mouth, not too much fun, especially sonce the pain began last week and the soonest appointment I could get was tomorrow....
Not much else happened other than the above. Had a quiet day at work, I was training a girl so it was sorta boring all day....boring, kind of like this entry..hmmmmmm
good night, wish me luck chez le dentist.

Sorry, no post last night. Just didn't feel like it.

Had the most strange dreams last night. So mauch was going on, I only remembered bits of it..but it was weird.
I was dreaming that my mum and I were walking on roof tops because we weren't allowed on the streets and I kept loosing her...SO I kept having to jump over dirty scummy roofs to get to her and when I finally did, I saw my Grandma's (the good one) led poking throught a hole in the roof. When I went to go grab it, she ran away, but I knew that she didn't just rtun away, she was gone. The dream kept going around in circles and it kept waking up all night long. I was a little worried that something had happened to my granny, thankfully, nothing did. Strange things though, my good friend Lance just sent me an e-amil telling me HIS nan died. I'm not saying I knoew it, but it's a coincidence just the same.

On to happier things. Last night my mum and I were really having a good time. I was working onthios sewing project for work and we were watching the Queens concert on the TV, and I was making fun of the "Light Rock", and my mum was loving it...Especially Joe Cocker, her favorite, we dance and sang and then things got really silly. My mum was folding her laundry and found a pair of her undies that had aquired a hole froim the dryer. She pulled them up and we giggled at the hole in the bum and then she ran after puppy and put them on her.. So now my mum's in hysterics and puppy is running aroung the house in my mum's pink underwear with her tail pulled throught the hole in the back. I guess you had to be there.....

Oh and on the train ride home last night, I was sitting in between the cars because all the seats were taken, and then I hear "HEY! How much did your tattoo cost again?", you see, a few days ago this same guy asked me the same question after I got off the train, so here he is again, asking me the same question and I answered the same thing I did the last time he asked: "A lot". He kept on asking me questions about whatever, he was trying to make conversation and I just wasn't into it, so I just answered his questions with yes or no and went back to reading my magazine... And in my magazing, there was a picture of a couple, in military attire, so the girl sorta looked like a man and he start yelling "EWWWW!GROSSS!THATS SOOOOO WRONG!!" ANd I was like whjat's wrong with a couple in the army? But he though it was tyoo guys and I asked what's wrong with two guys holding hands? And he lost it and was yelling that it was wrong for two guys to be in love and he was sorta freaking out that I was ok with it and he said I was "one if those super laid back non judgemental types..." I don;t know, but I already judged him to be Cu-koo! Then he asked me when I lived and I didn;t say but he knoew where I worked which was strange.... This guy is like 17-18 so I'm not really worried, but he seems a little freaky.... Hope I don't run into him again...

And besides all that excitment, nit much else it new, had a great day at work. Talked to Arno (tattooer) and we will finish my tattoo that I have in my calf on the 17, and two days later, I get my elbows daone by Dave....You'll notice i added a new link. It's to Tattoomania. And Marnie, who I've emtioned before, is there and you can see bnits of her work and Dave, her husband, is there as well... Take a look....

Geez..not much to say today, mostly bacause I haven't been doing much but Sim-ing.
Sueville population= 122,569
Yearly income= $15,754
Bank account= $ 129, 301.00

Not too bad for my first city. No cheats too...... Dam I'm good. Well I guess you'd be good too if you sacrificed ALL your free time to Sim City....

Didn't do much else, took a nice long walk with mum and puppy. Got some excercise and frsh air all in one shot!
My room has been tidyed up and the laundry started, now all that is left is dinner and sleep..

I got to bed at about five this morning, it's that darn saturday insomnia, I think it may be a curse.....However I don;t remember pissing any witches off, or raiding tombs......Hmmmm.

Well that'll be it for tonight, supper is almost ready and mum needs the computer.

I was woken up by the loudest sound I thing I've eaver heard. It was like dynamite going off in my backyard. Like being IN a thunder cloud. It was so loud and deep, things shook a little, it tipped over a few of my lamb figurinnes. It happened at about seven thirty this morning. Earthquake.

Actually I'm almost relieved that is was that, cause my mum heard on the radio that it may have been a sonic boom from a meteor breaking throiught the atmosphere. Whch to me is way scarier casue I was watching adocumentery on such thing snot lng ago and got really freaked out by how many meteors almnost crush us each and every day. They are just waiting for this one big one to hit. They say it's vut it pretty close twice already, and if it were to hit, bye-bye world. A slow agonizing death for everyone who wasn't directly hit. I should know better than to watch those kind if things...It gets me all worked up.

Anyways, earthquakes are just as scarry. So unpredictable. There's nothing you can do about it, it's anture and it can be very frightening.

Aniter brought me in her school registration booklt so i could look and see what kind os classes are availiable to take. I was thing about taking aclas or two to give me somthing to do, to occupy my mind, to challenge me.... I saw only two that would interest me, spanish and drawing, I think I may take the drawing course. I used to love to draw. It was so cxaliming, it took my mind to happy place. It's so satisfying. But I havent drawn much since I left Dawson College. Taht was like four, five years ago. And I really miss it. I may do that and on monday I'm gong to go up on St-Laurent and check out the make-up school that Cathy suggested. Hopefully by keeping myself occupied, I'll feel a little more "useful". I guess I'm just bored.

I'm goignt ogo watch Tv and hopefully fall asleep before 4h00....But somehow I doubt it. I usually stay up super late on saturdays. It's like I get saturday night insomnia. I'm no sure why I do, but I just can't fall asleep. And I would stay on the computer, but since my mum is goign to bed soon, My typing will keep her up, (the computer room is next to her bedroom)....

Goodnight.

It's now just past one thirty, saturday morning, just got home from work not too long ago......sooo awake.....

It was new collection night at the ol Gap, and what a waste of time it was. No one was organized, nothing got completely done. The first five hours of my nine hour shift were a little bit of a waste of my time....I could go on, but I'd rather not.

It's already June.....1/2 the years has gone by, and what do I have to show for it? Not much. I started out the year thinking this is THE year. The year that I'm gonna do something with my life, not just sit here and be scared and worry about stuff. This was suposed to be the year I got my dream job working as a make-up artist....Mind you the year isn't over yet, but time seems to be flying by.

The thing is I don't think I really know what I want out of life. I mean I have dreams and all that but they are really out there and impossible to attain....But what am I suposed to be doing now? It seems like everyone is on their way to be "something" and I'm just here. Just sitting here doing nothing but waiting, waiting for what I don't know but I'm getting a little tired of it. I think I need to get out of here. Not for good, but I think I need to experience life, whatever it is. I think I've secluded myself too much and now I'm 24 and have no idea about the world around me. I need to get out more, and maybe, dare I say it, travel...???? I guess the truth is I'm having one of those "what am I doing with my life" moments. But is travelling the solution? Or do I just need to find "myself"? I hate saying that, it sounds sooo very "fromage" but it's true. I'm feeling a little lost and perhaps the first step is just sitting down anbd figuring out just what it is I want from life. What is it that I want to achieve? It's not that I'm unhappy, quite the opposite. I'm the happiest I've ever been. I love my job, my family is the best, I have great friends.....but I still feel like something is missing. I'm not getting younger. I know I'm not old and people say "oh 24? Your just a baby, your so young..." Yeah I'm young, but I'm not even finished school, have no idea what I'm going to be, no savings or financial stability....as far as I'm concerned, 24 is very old to not have any of those things.....I need a plan. I'll feel better once there's a plan.

I don't always feel this way, and what brought it on is me being jealous over something sooo stupid....I guess I'm just feeling a little insecure at the moment.

Ten to two now, I think it's best if I just try and go to bed, being up late makes my mind go to mush, incase you haven't noticed.....