SO let's see. It's been like 2 weeks since he left me. I think I'm doing better.
I spent a week of total debauchery, getting krunk off my badonkadonk and spent the other week recuperating.
At least I'm not crying all the time anymore- Now it's only sparked randomly.
Like today I though I have made it without shedding a tear, and then "Nothing Else matters" (Metallica) comes on my shuffle........Floodgates....Flood-gates.
It's so ridiculous and I imagine this will all fade away and then I can be over him and move on....No wait- Actually I don't want to move on. Yes I want to move on from him but do I really want to move on to another?
NO.
I think I'm a strong enough person to be fine without a partner. Not to say the partners are weak and need that someone else, but I think for me- I may be happier if I don't settle down.
You know what who the hell knows and who really cares anyways. I'm going to keep going on doing what I'm doing and being happy- SHOULD I get involved with someone along the way then FINE- But I ain't going out of my way to go get them.
("THIS I KNOW FO'SHIZZLE")