7 SHIFTS AT GAP LEFT


And today I did my last window display- and it sucked.

I knew this couldn’t go well. It started out okay, we din;t have the posters to put up so we had plenty of time to dress the mannequins and stuff, but our posters arrive at like noon and we had the afternoon to do it, well afternoon soon turned into early evening....

I don’t know what went wrong, I was chugging along but seemed to be getting nowhere- zero progress. I was making stupid mistakes that took long to correct and ...I dunno, it went bad and all I wanted was for it to be done. I was supposed to be done at three, I left there at almost five thirty.
Whatever, it’s over now.

And I kept telling myself to relax, breathe and it’ll be over. No matter what , this day had to end, weather it be at three, five or ten, it was inevitable going to end, and that got me through it. Yeah I was moody, and grumpy, and unsympathetic, but I still managed not to loose it, well sorta.

I think it was just one of those days where everyone was having a bad day. I kn9ow that everyone I talked to today mentioned that something didn’t go right or something happened to make their day a little harder. For me it was those dam posters. But it’s done and over with so there’s no reason to dwell on it.

What really freaked me out , was that it IS my last window. And I DO only have seven shifts left, and I have the feeling that they are going to be shifts that will make me really happy to be leaving. We have a new collection this week-end. My only hope is that it doesn’t go as bad as it did the last time. Man that was awful.

SO after work I went out to eat with Spyros and Genevieve. We ate a Nickels, the Celine Dion cafe of greasy overpriced food. Not only did we support “Sealion” but we ate the sickest food in town. I think they make everything with cheese there, either it’s been deep fried, melted with cheese or deep fried cheese-d. Anyways we ate and talked and had some fun, then I went looking at shoes. I need shoes for my new job. I had really nice boots, but I can’t wear them everyday, they hurt after like 8 hours and it’s impossible to wear them two days in a row..... But fancy flat shoes aren’t really my thing so it makes it hard. Anyways I was looking for them and them I w=saw I nice pair of sneakers. ..On sale.... And I think that if they had had them in my size, I would have ended up buying them.

You see, when I have a bad day- I shop. I buy myself something to make myself feel better. And just his week I got a credit card...Recipe or danger? I think not! So far I’ve bought movie ticket and a CD and I already paid them back. I just want to have some credit...Anyways, I was going to buy myself make-up, which is usually the ONLY thing that will make me feel better, but I thought “ why? In a week I’m going to have loads of it and have major discounts on all my favourite things...so there’s no point. Then I though- clothes, but i’m feeling a little bloated today so trying things on was completely out of the question. And then there was the shoes- I convinced myself that I’d rather buy a pair of sneakers when I go to NY, it’ll be more fun that way. So I went home empty handed and proud of myself for not spending.

Man I’m happy the day is over. I just felt all weird at work. I know I’m leaving and it’s really stressing me out. I’m feeling very uncomfortable leaving Anita. I feel like I’m leaving her hanging and with all this extra stress and tons of work. I think I’m still pulling my weight but i feel like I have to do more so it’ll be easier for her. I dunno, I guess I feel like I’m deserting her and leaving her with my dirty laundry and all these loose ends. I guess I’m just freaking out, and I think that anyone in my position would feel the same.

I walked by the make-up counter where i’ll be working and just looked around at the kind of people who shop there are like, the atmosphere....Seems like fun. Seems like it’s going to be INSANE during the holidays, but i’m used to that from the Gap so I imagine that this will be comparable...

Survivor was good, but it’s got nothing on Amazing Race- the show it the BOMB! But my favourite team was eliminated, and now i need a new team to like, I guess it’ll be John-Veto and co. And I was happy that the porn star stayed on survivor- I’m starting to like him, he’s smart but his =wife shouldn’t have videoed the piano and two cars and big house, she should have videoed like the barn or someone’ s trailer home and seventeen kids and six dogs, ten cats, jalopy.............just and idea for next years competitors.


And with that I say goodnight and screw you crappy thursday.