Went to my dentist appoinment this morning. The cause of all that pain in my mouth was two miniature cavities on my back tooth. My dentist was very surprised that such a tiny cavity cause me so much discomfort, but when the drilling started, she realized that they were small, but they were also deep. So drill and drill she did.

My apponment was at eleven this morning, she froze me at around eleven thirty, and up until about an hour ago, I was still numb. That's six hours of the entire left side of my face, including my tongue and lips, being frozen to the point where I was drooling and unable to eat without dribbling like a baby.
But the procedure was very fast. It took only about 25 minutes to x-ray, freeze, drill and fill the cavities, and how much did it cost you ask. Well an hour at the dentist would have ran me just about $200.00!!! Thank GOD for insurance. I mean two hundred smackers. It's insane!!!!

I was quite dissapointed that she found the cavities. It has been about seventeen years since I had my last cavity. I think I was seven, or maybe even younger....I've only had two, until now that is. And I'm not the kind of girl who is super into cleaning my teeth. I brush 3 times a day like most do, never floss.....But I guess I'm just lucky enought to have these super resiliant teeth....It's a good thing because I love sweets too much to ever have to cut down on them... I'm hoping that I'll be able to go another seventeen years without cavites...
And lets see, after the dentist we (my mum and I) went out to buy flowers for the garden and we also picked up a movie: Vanilla Sky

***CAUTION IF YOU HAVE NOT YET SEEN THE MOVIE VANILLA SKY, DO NOT READ ON, THIS PORTION TO THE BLOG CONTAINS SPOILERS***

Okay so I've heard all sorts of things about this movie and none of them good things reall, but I had to see it for myself. And it's not that I completely hated the movie, I just didn't completely like it either, it was sorta just there.
I think that becasue I had an idea of what the movies was about, I could look for things and expected things to happen. Like I know that most of the movie was a sort of dream and I had that in my mind when I started to movie, so I was looking for signs that the scenes were a dream and I kind of figured most of it out. It's just the ending was so slow and weird. I know lots of people didn't like it becasue it wasn't believable but HELLO, it's a movie, you think Jurassic Park was real ? Movies are suposed to be fake, if they were real, then they be documentaries, not movies. But anyways the end was too slow and sorta jumbled together. It could have used an extra trip to the editing room. but you know, I gues it wasn't so bad, but very all over the place...and it was too bad that throught most of the movie Tom Cruise's face is all busted up... I'll give it an E for effort and on a scale of 1-10, I'll be nice and give it a 6.5.

**VANILLA SKY SPOILER NOW OVER***

So Aimee (my sister) is in Switzerland now. She's been travelling all around Europe for the last two months or so and now she's there, with Sylvie. She just called me today and it was really weird talking to Sylvie and then her passing the phone to my sister.....It made me feel like I was the one that was far away, and I guess in a way I am. I was happy that my sister was there because she was able to meet the famous Visar.

Visar, in case you don't know is Sylvie's husband, they got married over a year ago and they live in Switzerlad. I have never meet him or spoken more than ten words to him at a time (he doesn't speak much or any english). So now I had a chance to hear what he was really like. Aimee said he seems really nice and that they are really happy together.....It made me happy to hear, also I was relieved....But at the same time I couldn't help but feel really bad. I was feeling bad because all this time I had doubted Sylvie. I doubted her love for him, I didn't like,him becaue it was because of him that Sylvie didn't come home that summer, and it was because of him that she now lives there, away from me. I guess I just finally realized how selfish I was being. I wanted Sylvie to stay here with me and be my friend andI didn't want her to go away. And becasue it was Visar that took her away, it was easy for me not like him even thought I never even met him.

I guess it just all boils down to the fact that I just don't know what love is. I don't think I've ever really been in love so I can't understand how it is to be so in love with someone that it becomes more important than anything in the world. I guess love really is blindness....

It kind of sucks, never having experienced the love that every one seems to be talking about. And I guess it's a bit of jealousy too. I wouldn't mind feeling love like that.
Anyways, I was happy to hear that she (sylvie) is okay and Visar is nice, but it made me feel like such an asshole for not trusting Sylvie. One of my closest friends for almost ten years.....TEN years and I don't belive her when she says she's in love. I've been really mean to her when all along it's me that's had the problem. I just need to let it all go and acept the fact that she has a life over there in Switzerland and the reality is that she'll probably live there, without me....and that makes me sad, and miss her even more.

I wish I could go back and be a better friend to her.