*TOPIC TUESDAY*
This tuesdays topis- PHOBIAS
Next tuesdays topic- SELF TREPANATION (need time to read up on it, and tonight I just don't feel like researching)
A phobia is a persistent and unreasonable fear of a specific object, activity or situation.
We all have something that scares us, me, I have quite a few. But my top three phobias are:
#1: Spiders- Arachnephobia (Creepy, crawly things- Herpetophobia)
#2: Vomiting- Emetophobia
#3: Flying- Aviophobia
Mind you I haven't been "diagnosed" with these phobias but they do scared the crap out of me.
I know that being scared of bugs and spiders is a real girly type thing but I really am affraid of them. To the point that if I see a spider in the living room, I won't go there until someone has killed it or gotten rid of it and even then I wont go there until one day it slips my mind that there was once a spider there. The worst was when I was in the shower upstairs and I'm doing all the normal shower things and then I look up...There IT is. It was huge, really I'm not exaggerating. It's body was big and "juicy" and it was hanging there by it's web about five inches from my face. Needless to say I ran out of there screamng like a banshee and that was about a year ago and I still haven't used that shower since... Before you go making dirty girl jokes, we have a second shower downstainr which is spider free. You also need to understand that in the suburbs where I live we get wolf spiders. If you don't know what they look like, then do a google search cause I'm not going to look around for you. All I have to say is that they are big..I mean tarantula big. They don't live in webs, they live in burrows under wood, under stairs, anywhere really. My backyard is full of great homes for those fuckers. I saw one last year and it was as big as my hand! Even when they are babies they're big and they hang aroung my front porch so when I go out I have to duck and run casue I'm scared they're going to drop on me. Today Anita and I passed by a pet store and I was looking in the aquariums that had the mice and hampsters and then I gazed over to see the fucking tarantula and had a pannic attack....
Then there's vomitting. Nothing puts me more into a pannic like nausea. Even talking about it makes me feel nervous. If you know me you're suposed to know not to talk about diarhea or vomitting UNLESS, I bring it up (no that wasn't a joke "bring it up"). I haven't vomitted for about 3-4 years. I think that last time I did was when I was at home eating a jolly rancher and I started to choke on it and couldn't breath and I stuck my fingers down my throat to yak it up and I hurt like you can't imagine. The time before that was when I drank too much rye and smoked some pot. I had to walk home from the park (that's 2 block away) and it took me about an hour casue I was barfing every two steps....I wouldn't mind having to vomit at home, I think it's more vomiting in public that I'm affraid of, so I always carry a plastic bag in my purse/jacket/pant pocket just incase I feel like barfing. It's true, just ask Anita. I also carry pepto bismol wherever I go. I don't know if it really helps but in my mind it does.
Flying. This phobia is TOTALLY unrelated to september 11th. Though I might add that it didn't help much. I've always had a fear of flying. I hate it when my family or friends fly too. My sister lives in London and I can't even go see her.. I tried to last year. I went to the travel agent and we sat sown and started talking about what I could afford and flight schedules etc...and when she started talking about booking flights I started shaking, sweating and crying so I got up and ran out of there. Just the thought of going into a plane, flying far away from home, over water, over big sharp mountains....can't do it. won't do it unless I'm heavily sedated, I'd have to be.